>pre transition
>have lots of sex, multiple gfs, generally enjoy topping and prefer putting my dick in people's assholes
>early transition
>think I hate my dick and want to be a chastity cage wearing bottom for the rest of my life
>become an incredible bottom
>can take massive dicks
>have an abusive relationship and start to hate bottoming
>start using my dick again
>my dick shrunk 1.5 inches
>can't properly enjoy topping anymore unless its a hyper specific set of angles
>tried hooking up tonight
>awkwardly try to rail the bottom with my rock hard 4 inch shenis
>condom keeps fucking me up
>can't stay inside him
>jerk off into my hand, go home
>contemplate suicide
>can't enjoy bottoming anymore because trauma makes me not want to lose power
>can't enjoy topping anymore because my dick is too short to stay inside someone during sex
I wish i didn't let my gock shrink I'm a fucking retard

fix ur trauma

>>40309718
No. I want to fix my dick so i can get off in other ways besides jerking myself off

>>40309711 (OP)
Have you considered power bottoming?

>>40309798
I'm not going back to bottoming.

>>40309718
Unironically this
From the mind stems much of your problems