Anonymous
7/7/2025, 10:27:19 PM No.40315698
AAAH I HATE HOW I FEEL PLEASE HELP
I'm an 18 year old 5'3 cis black male and I keep having thoughts about transitioning. For my entire high school life, I tried so hard to get a girlfriend. I did everything I could, got out more, joined clubs, tried to understand girls, improved myself and gained skills, but I've graduated and asked over 10 girls out and have nothing to show for it. It made me feel so defeated to put in so much effort just to come up empty handed. I've always been straight and have an idealized idea of a girlfriend, not in any specific personality or looks but just how they act around me, being super clingy and just as obsessed with me as I am her. The more time that passes the more I feel like it'll never come to pass, and I don't really have any friends either despite putting myself out there and trying to engage with people. All of this makes me feel like the quality of my life would improve if I transition. I'm already short and have a slim body. My face is pretty androgynous and could probably be prettied up with FFS and good use of makeup. The thing is I understand the reason why I may want to transition. It's weird but while I like girls, if I transition I'd only date men. I want to be able to live the fantasy of my ideal GF through my potential boyfriend. The idea of being super clingy and cute and affectionate makes my heart flutter but I'm scared this is just a fetish, and even regardless of that I'm still scared. My parents obviously wouldn't approve and I have no clue what would happen, they're not conservative but they're African so they're very traditional in that sense. Agh I really hate this I feel like I'd be able to be happy as a cute girl in a relationship with a guy and make him happy but if tomorrow I woke up and a clingy girl was my girlfriend I'd probably abandon all those thoughts, I just don't know anymore
I'm an 18 year old 5'3 cis black male and I keep having thoughts about transitioning. For my entire high school life, I tried so hard to get a girlfriend. I did everything I could, got out more, joined clubs, tried to understand girls, improved myself and gained skills, but I've graduated and asked over 10 girls out and have nothing to show for it. It made me feel so defeated to put in so much effort just to come up empty handed. I've always been straight and have an idealized idea of a girlfriend, not in any specific personality or looks but just how they act around me, being super clingy and just as obsessed with me as I am her. The more time that passes the more I feel like it'll never come to pass, and I don't really have any friends either despite putting myself out there and trying to engage with people. All of this makes me feel like the quality of my life would improve if I transition. I'm already short and have a slim body. My face is pretty androgynous and could probably be prettied up with FFS and good use of makeup. The thing is I understand the reason why I may want to transition. It's weird but while I like girls, if I transition I'd only date men. I want to be able to live the fantasy of my ideal GF through my potential boyfriend. The idea of being super clingy and cute and affectionate makes my heart flutter but I'm scared this is just a fetish, and even regardless of that I'm still scared. My parents obviously wouldn't approve and I have no clue what would happen, they're not conservative but they're African so they're very traditional in that sense. Agh I really hate this I feel like I'd be able to be happy as a cute girl in a relationship with a guy and make him happy but if tomorrow I woke up and a clingy girl was my girlfriend I'd probably abandon all those thoughts, I just don't know anymore
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