former neet rotgirls of /tttt/: does anxiety ever get better? i force myself to go outside and go to work and do things regardless because i refuse to become a slave to my mental illness but it feels like basically every time i go out i have at least one major sperg moment or panic attack. i live in a busy/overpopulated city and get claustrophobic and overstimulated really easily so my life is just full of triggers, i'm also hypervigilant and have been told i'm very visibly anxious so it's just... ugh. i should probably be on medication but for a lot of reasons it's hard for me to get that. how do you make it bearable? sometimes i really want to just go back to not leaving my house apart from buying groceries.

if you say so

>>40332469 (OP)
I'm similar but instead of anxiety it's anger at the world and I'd rather not deal with anyone or anything at all because I hate them and don't want anyone trying to even interact with me that isn't already my friend. Meds don't help anyway because our society is cooked.

>>40332469 (OP)
i used to not be able to go outside without literally thinking i was about to die, now i've had a very public facing retail job for almost 3 years
in my experience the anxiety just kind of wore away over time since i was kinda forced to get a job and get money but it was replaced by very misanthropic and depressed feelings about people and being outside. however i find that when im with my friends or just people i like i enjoy being outside and life in general so i try to stick with them whenever i can

>>40332544
i relate yeah, i don't necessarily feel anger but i have a lot of "this isn't the world i grew up in" type feelings. people are so selfish these days and covid seems to have made everyone antisocial or just uncooperative.
>>40332565
>however i find that when im with my friends or just people i like i enjoy being outside and life in general so i try to stick with them whenever i can
for sure, it sucks that all the people i consider friends live far away from me so most of the time when i'm outside i'm alone.

>>40332565
this. i am avpd and used to be terrified of other people until i started to learn like stock things to say and do to get me through the day on autopilot, realizing how other people perceived me and how i could influence their opinion of me, and just generally being around others more overall. the average person is just as self centered as you, does not care about you, and even if they do they will likely judge you for arbitrary reasons not worth worrying about. and hell in the end we're all just gonna be bones in the ground anyways.

that being said, it does sound like op might have some underlying sensory issues and it might help a lot to talk to a therapist and potentially get medication or something (i am not an expert there)

>>40332469 (OP)
it never got better for me until i started passing, then it was mitigated by like 90%. then i stopped passing cause my hormones got fucked up for a year and im more of a shut in than ever now

>>40332642
i'm trying to get on a waitlist for a psychiatry centre that specialises in neurodevelopmental disorders because i suspect i may suffer from autism or ADHD or both. unfortunately mental healthcare in this country has been decimated in recent years. i had a psychiatrist but she didn't take my anxiety seriously at all, she was convinced i just had to keep upping and upping my SSRI dose until it made me manic and i had to stop altogether or i'd end up back in hospital. simply can't afford counselling unless insurance covers it which it rarely does.
>>40332720
i wish it was as simple as that for me. i don't have issues passing to strangers at all, i can't even remember the last time i had to bring up my transition irl, and the world is still terrifying and overwhelming.