>>40343238Critically dysfunctional without people around me, dissociate very often to fantasize that I am not alone
Extreme emotions around rejection that sometimes dont make sense like for someone I barely know. It will trigger the fear of aloneness
Then in relationships i will seek out and be happy being possessed by someone and then i will try to make them happy. If i fall short and im not good enough deep ripping grief can happen. If I do something wrong anger or annoyance can make me freeze up and fear abandonment
This all manifests mostly in me being quiet and sensitive, obedient outwardly and not in any of the extreme possessive behavior you see in bpd