>>40348442>friend 1, 3 yearshigh school friend who I later went to uni with, I trooned out during this time and he dropped me shortly after (probably because of that)
>friend 2, 4 years she just kinda lost interest in me after our ttrpg group collapsed and stopped talking to me after we graduated from our uni course (this was my fault, I was a weirdo drug addict at this time and a shitty game master)
>friend from work, 2 yearseventually we rented a house together but she immediately stopped wanting to hang out with me after we got a place together, we still live together after 2 years later and she's easily wealthy enough to move out if she wanted, yet she only engages in small talk now
all of these friends I used to be super close with, it's honestly unbearable, I just wish one of them would've clearly explained what I did wrong
>>40348365I'm asex, I've tried to date but it just never feels right, man or woman I just feel horrible that I can't reciprocate their sexual affection authentically