I started hrt 2y ago and after about a year I realized I wasn’t trans and didn’t have dysphoria but I couldn’t bring myself to stop estrogen so ever since then I’ve just been in this weird state of confusion where I’m continuing to feminize my body even though I see myself as a normal cis male and I’m pretty sure its making me depressed

>doesnt have dysphoria
>takes hormones and gives himself dysphoria
>doesnt stop taking them
???

>>40357754
yea p much, tho i hated my body before too

>>40357735 (OP)
Well that isn't working out very well for you eh? You'd think maybe you'd like, figure out the solution by now

>>40357829
ye part of the problem is I still have really bad bdd I kinda want certain parts of ffs but I’m too paralyzed to commit to anything

>>40357735 (OP)
pretty sure you do have dysphoria. do you *want* to mald?

>>40357896
I just have really severe bdd, I realized I don’t really have any gender issues, like if a was a cute male I would never have fallen down this path

>>40357925
what does a "cute male" look like, to you? a twink?

>>40357735 (OP)
do u want a masculine body or a feminine body

you already know the answer, thats why u continue hrt

>>40357945
yea basically
>>40357955
I want a feminine male body which is not the same as an estrogenized male body. And I’d prob be ok with a normal male body if I had a feminine face

>>40358002
no twink survives second puberty. that's why we take estrogen

>>40358035
I’m not really a twink tho I mean my body is pretty skinny but my face just looks like a normal dude so I just look weird on e

>>40358059
but the "feminine males" you want to look like eventually age into "normal dudes." even if you had the face you wanted, you'd still be taking estrogen

>>40358092
idk troye still looks cute at 30
I mean if there’s any reason I still take e it’s bc all my life I wished I had naturally cute genetics like twinks do

>>40358131
you can't measure yourself against idealities like this. if you had been born as this hypothetical person with the correct genetics, do you think you would still want to be that person? or would you want something else entirely, because you have something else entirely?

>>40358170
I mean that’s literally what I’m saying tho, I’m just a dude who wishes he was pretty and hrt kinda makes me cuter but not really at the same time I shouldn’t be on it bc I’m a cis male so I’m in a double bind. Obviously if I liked the way I looked I wouldn’t have all these thoughts and would just be a normal dude