I'm 20 and I've never been in a relationship. I haven't even as much held hands with someone.

I know this is all my fault for shutting down socially since I was 14 but it really sucks.

I yearn for connection, I want to be loved and yet I'm always so awkward, scared and anxious.
I'm in a hell of my own making and I think I'm genuinely going to die alone.

>>40358788 (OP)
man you're 20 get it together and you'll easily have a relationship before you get to 30