I want a boyfriend but penetration makes me wanna panic and cry. why am i like this.
>t.mtf

>>40381396 (OP)
were you raped or something

>>40381396 (OP)
find a guy who will hold you and keep fucking you while you cry

>>40381442
Thats a good way to get her to start panicking while being held period and then youve robbed her of the comfort of human touch and she suis all over you

>>40381450
easy
just wrap arms around until she stops panicking and internalizes the fact that she belongs to you

this isn't a dealbreaker for most guys

vast majority of gay encounters don't involve penetration

>>40381464
stop, you have no clue

>>40381398
no im just really creeped out about anything going in my butt, the more research i do the less appealing and scarier it is. i really wish i was born with a vagina because i doubt man can survive off blowjobs alone.

>>40381396 (OP)
how do you imagine having sex when you masturbate?

>>40381494
just get a bf strong enough so you cant say no, you'll get used to it eventually.

>>40381489
i've done it before and will do it again if given the chance

>>40381509
But it hurts. I don't think you really like someone if you're willing to cause her pain just to get slightly more pleasure than you would from a blowjob

>>40381502
i dont know, i kinda just look at the guy and imagine how nice it would be to have his arms on me or blowing him. i use a vibrator over my pants so that i dont have to look at my dick or worse touch it.
>>40381474
i hope this is true but most of what i hear is that theyre real horny and not gonna waste their time if theres no fucking involved. also im pretty feminized from the waist up so i doubt gay men have much interest in me.

>>40381494
what makes it so scary anon?

>>40381548
eh. all the cleaning you have to do, the acceptance that something can always go wrong. i read a pdf about how gay men prepare for anal sex and it made me put off of the whole idea entirely.
i already have a lot of GI problems and throwing something like anal sex into the mix just feels really fucking nerve racking.
I would really rather just do kink stuff but it feels like a lot of guys just wouldnt be satisfied with that.

>>40381538
there's a lot that could be done to make it not hurt

>>40381588
mmm if you got gi probs, maybe work on that? not for anal but yaknow because gi problems suck

>>40381613
oh they definitely do. going to a doctor is hard though, i inherited some bad habits from my family. hard to break through the idea that all doctors are bastards.

>>40381396 (OP)
read a few of ur replies and I honestly think firstly you should learn how to clean/douche yourself first and start having fibre supplements, this may actually help your GI problems at the same time, could also help you feel more comfy with putting something inside you. either that or you start with trying to put your finger inside yourself and getting yourself more used to it because once you actually figure it out and know what to expect its an incredible experience darl

>>40381494
>blowjobs alone

>>40381792
nta but its very hard to find actual advice on how to properly prep on the internet, I do not know where to look. I take fibre supplements & my diet contains good amounts of fibre anyways, but my bf has a very big ,, so just douching isn't really enough :( I want to be more available for him, do you have any advice for this? Do I need a specific shower adapter or something? T-T

>>40381971
there's an analgen on like /d/ or some pervert board which is pretty helpful

>>40381971
maybe you are not having enough fibre, you usually need 20g a day, if douching isn't cleaning everything out then you must still have something wrong with your diet

>>40381545

Honestly, good make out sessions and blowjobs are just as good. Especially if throat fucking is on the table or your blowjob game is strong.

Penetrate your boyfriend instead.

>>40381396 (OP)
It’s very different when someone you love and find hot is doing it. Like completely different. I lack the words.

>>40382122
kill yourself

>>40381396 (OP)
Penetrative sex is more about the intimacy to me. Blowjobs are perfectly good for shooting a load out just because you're horny, but it doesn't compare to the closeness you get with missionary, for example. If you find a boy you genuinely love and trust, I think eventually you'll warm up to the idea of doing it with him.