Just made this photo to vent. Made a thread last night but apparently my censored body is considered porn now.

HRT + transitioning had done so many things I didn't expect and i feel like i'm not in control anymore I was toned and athletic twink before and now i have like a soft and round mommy tummy which gives my torso a pear shaped appearance. No amount of weight loss or exercise can make this go away because estrogen just causes more fat to built up and anteror pelvic tilt is just shaping my body to look like this and trying to stop it barely delays the inevitable. I have like weirdly large swollen tits and engorged nipples that people comment on now and make me self conscious. I have literally no upper body strength, I am 67% as fast and have about 50% of my endurance as before.

More importantly though my emotions have become literally pathetic. I cry when i'm sad and I literally whine and beg for things I want now. I was bisexual and leaning toward women before but I have only had receptive anal sex with men since transitioning i.e. straight by default. I'm basically emotionally dependant on my boyfriend, my life revolves around supporting him and getting ready for married life. The only thoughts in my head are about food and comfort and i know it's a cliche but my internal monologue is literally gone. I can't give myself an orgasm anymore because I'm barely three inches when semi hard, m which is painful. Like all I can do is lavish care on my appearance so my boyfriend will want to put his penis inside of me and cum in me so i feel needed.

I'm just frustrated about being turned into a weak willed castrated faggot bitch, just being arm candy for my boyfriend in every way. And yes I know that makes me an ago misogynist to think that andbthat real women are feminists and shit or something so roast me allyou want.

>>40390116 (OP)
larp. i remember you posting that pic. obviously not you. definite agamp larper

>>40390116 (OP)
>Like all I can do is lavish care on my appearance so my boyfriend will want to put his penis inside of me and cum in me so i feel needed.

Hot

>>40390185

How is it obviously not me wtf. Is that a compliment?

And if I'm agamp so what?

Bump

Just work out hoe. I got ankle surgery the same month I started HRT, nuking my test + not moving destroyed my muscles. I'm finally in the gym again, and I have recovered *some* of my speed and strength. With super low T you are not gonna put on tons muscle, but you will get stronger. I can still run and do pull-ups and stuff. It's good for u. You'll probably feel better about urself idk

>>40390116 (OP)
longest most worthless humbebrag ive seen in a long time. all of your "problems" are basically fake and easily fixable faggot

>>40392005
this

>>40392005

No!! They're not! : O i became all weak and faggy due to HRT and it's very frustrating realizing how its irreversible. Sometimes i get scared i'm not good enough for my boyfriend and cry because I'm scared!!

>>40390116 (OP)
>i know it's a cliche but my internal monologue is literally gone
suspicion about women confirmed

>>40392662
that's a man tho

>>40392668
a man running on estrogen is closer to a woman than any other man

>>40392685
you are gay

>>40392662
>>40392668

Whatever i am, like my internal monologue, ability to see and rotate 3d objects, competetiveness, and hyperfixation on hobbies is all gone or very much reduced

>>40392698
>ability to see and rotate 3d objects
nta, but I don't believe this is a thing. I don't believe people genuinely see objects in their head that doesn't even make sense. I have an internal monologue like where I hear my voice, but seeing an object? so what you close your eyes and can just picture anything you want? sure I can think of something and "know" what it looks like, but everything is still black and I don't visually SEE it, I just "know" what it looks like
i'm positive everyone who says they see something either doesn't know what they're talking about and are like me, or they're psyopping

>>40392827
I can literally genuinely see 3-dimensional objects in my head
I wouldn't have been able to pass organic chemistry and chiral molecules and (R,S) enantiomerism if I couldn't

>>40392827

My brother is like you, he doesn't picture objects in his head. And desu i was joking about the 3d object rotation to seem more cute and fembrained, but I can image a 3d objects in my head and rotate it fairly easily. But this has decreased since HRT. I used to be able to simulate game environments like a whole chess game in my head. Now there is no way my brain would ever do that. Obviously I can't know how accurate my Mental image is but it's quite clear and 3d in my head.

This doesnt mean anything about intelligence. My brother is a musician and got better grades than me. He can do many tasks quicker. But I am better than him at verbal tasks, videogames, and using logic quickly to solve problems. Even HRT doesn't change the baseline caracteristicts, they dont exactly line up with gender it's just a difference in how brains seem to work.

My internal monologue HAS totally silenced with E though as well as difference in activities and motivations. I also move less.

>>40390116 (OP)
>wants to be a woman
>turns into woman
>I'm such pathetic little faggot