>>40417049 (OP)The human mind doesn't work like a physical equation, you can't just apply pressure in the opposite direction to zero out a force. Trying to be super manly to overcome a desire to be feminine will just make your mind explode from cognitive dissonance. This is what results in ancient boomerhons.
Either accept that your feelings aren't something you can act on outside of your private life, or troon out. There is a third path that involves learning to love your body and yourself despite being AGP but it's basically impossible for most people so I won't recommend it.