How many of y'all have been raped and found it created a twisted sexuality that revolves around recreating that trauma?

>>40421437 (OP)
i was never raped but i wish i was

i have nwever been raped and yet i am obsessed with fantasies of raping someone. i think im like this because im in great pain and rape is one of the worst things that you can do to a person and i like the fantasy of making someone feel such terrible agony and humiliation because it doesnt end after the rape that trauma will be lifelong. i also grew up on early internett where people made rape jokes and drew rape porn all of the time and that was my first introductiion to sexuality so it kind of got stuck this way. its also a power thing kind of, ive been forced into situations where i was powerless so now i fantasize about having complete control over someone in this fucked up way

>>40421617
would you rape me? Please

>>40421437 (OP)
After the first time I was raped yes. The second time I became a massive prude whos only into vanilla, and can't take even light choking, I think that sex is meant to be an act of mutual love and compassion and bringing any kind of domination into it is wrong.

I was raped four times because I’m a silly little goofball and I get rly drunk and high with men who take advantage of me and I like it but it gave me a lot of trauma I even got raped last night by a ftm bc I’m so pathetic

>>40421632
i dont plan on doing it irl

>>40421656
:(

that's just a rape kink anon, often people who like cnc have been raped before

>>40421720
like 50% of trannies are rape victims tho

>>40421741
there are also a lot of trannies who like bdsm

>>40421441
Same, I wish I was violently raped as a kid because I would've deserved it for being annoying.

>>40421437 (OP)
I've been sexually abused or SA'd more times than I care to admit and yeah its fucked up my perception of sexuality but more so relationships because I can't like people who don't remind me of certain aspects of people who exploited. I get dysphoric (ftm) that I can only see myself with men who don't give a fuck if I live or die even though I only think women are attractive. Idk how to find a guy like that atm for some reason

I was raped multiple times by the same guy

>>40421437 (OP)
I’ve had several men not stop when I wanted them to and then came inside of me when I was begging them to stop. These started out consensually but stopped being. Now I have a kink about men ignoring me telling them to stop and cumming in me, even though it was terrible when it happened

i was but not going into details. childhood many times, and in adulthood a handful of grape and bad situation grey events where its technically grape but im letting it slide cause it didnt bother me too much even though i was getting fucked by people i didnt want to.
i am more traumatized not even by the grape but by how people treat me when they find out especially family

I have never been raped I just am very accommodating with my butt.

>>40424058
this is 4chan stop saying grape

there is no tiktok algorithm and you don't need to censor the reality of your experience. typing the word rape is not a trigger.

>>40424003

Same thing happened to me and now I have the same fetish. I also fetishize the part leading up to it where I clearly state I'm uncomfortable or don't want it and they reassure me they're not trying to do that and get closer and gropier and bolder trying to convince me the whole way through they're just being friendly, then getting comfortable, then feeling good, then aw sorry couldn't help myself it was right there if you really didn't want it should have stopped me sooner, and I'm freaking out because I did try to stop you earlier and he just keeps fucking into me confident he can make me want it if he fucks harder. I like to fantasize that getting creampied is like a lose state where if he manages it I have to concede I deserved it and he's entitled to do it again forever

>>40424141
shut up and grape me

I think getting raped as a kid is why I'm not into guys or normal relationships. I'm only really interested in being the powerless, dependent, manipulated bottom w/ another tranny. Gf, wife, pet, whatever dynamic gets her off the most. Size difference is big too. Her being able to overpower me, and me physically not being able to stop her,,,,it makes my brain melt x.x like I'm too fucked up to handle a healthy normal relationship, I need to be treated like this to function


but I'm a loser virgin so its all maladaptive fantasy

>>40421437 (OP)
no, i've been raped twice and it was unpleasant but didn't leave any lasting emotional damage
i'd rather be raped than beaten up
women are pussies about getting raped

>>40421649
Having consensual non-con sex isn't rape.

>>40421741
Falsenuke

>>40421720
This is my biggest hurdle towards ever wanting to explore CNC with someone. I'm fine with the concept but the idea that a partner might be into it explicitly because they had been raped in the past is extremely discomforting.

>>40421437 (OP)
the sex I have bottoming for men is all recreations of what the PE teacher did to me. The sex I have with women is what my mother did to me. The sex I have with less masculine men is what I did with my brother and then tried to reproduce with the other boys in my class.
I try not to think about it

>>40421437 (OP)
Contemplate eros. There's both a metaphysical and psychological phenomena to this. Its very interestinh