how do i get rid of faggot thoughts when i'm not jacking off, it's distracting

>>40447163 (OP)

>>40447163 (OP)
Average straight chaser hands typed this post.

>>40447163 (OP)
the post nut clarity eventually stops working and you'll eventually start on hrt and curse yourself for not starting earlier

>>40447163 (OP)
the cure for that is hrt.
just feminize yourself then if you have 0 obligations to anyone already.
if you already have a wife & kids etc you should ride it out and not be a faggot.
if you are single? go for it.

>>40447249
it would appear i need to go cold turkey on beating my meat

>>40447248
it's stimulating obviously but i don't want it

>>40447163 (OP)
stop repressing and take your pills alice

>>40447163 (OP)
the tranny thoughts dont ever go away

>>40447691
i am not gonna take hrt

>>40447881
how do i cope then

>>40447894
you are not going to like it

>>40447902
yeah probably, it doesn't matter if i like it or not though does it

>>40447163 (OP)
Youre lucky it goes away after nutting

>>40447435
this doesnt work either, the thoughts will actually get worse

>>40447941
do you have any papers on hand that actually state so

>>40447917
hrt
>>40447978
nta, but anecdotally they are telling the truth

>>40448002
ngl play pretend and expensive drugs are not gonna make me into a woman
it'll destroy my self image and lead me to off myself before i hit 35

as i stated before, no hrt

i need to rewire my brain somehow, i've pulled through worse i just need a little help figuring out how things operate

i'm writing this blogpost wall of text here because on /adv/ i'd just get replies saying kys

>>40448045
when did you first notice the tranny thoughts anon? how old are you now?

>>40448045
the drugs arent that expensive lol, idk why chuds think this. i pay like 80 dollars a year for my hrt and thats without insurance covering it. its not even complicated to synthesize compared to most drugs so its not even really subsidized.

>>40448057
when i was around 12 i'd very rarely but still think it'd be cool to be a girl, nothing sex related in mind i just felt i'd feel better this way (i didn't mind being a boy though)

24 now and i still get thoughts like this, i like to roleplay as girls in rpg vidya and other stuff like that

>>40448110
oh nona :(

>>40448072
i'm not paying any amount of money for a drug that will kill me

might aswell eat random mushrooms i find in the forest and attach some placebo to it

>>40448110
when if ever did the thoughts stoping feeling good and start hurting?

>>40448045
Just sounds like you have internalized hate at the idea of being considered trans. You think being a faggot is wrong so you don't want to deal with faggot thoughts.

It's just hard to deny that if you're jacking off imagining yourself as a girl and the post nut clarity doesn't make you want to stop being a girl, you probably want to be a girl.

You'll stop beating your meat, start back up looking at stuff that used to hit hard realizing it's not as good and then jacking off imagining yourself as a woman will become even more intense until you literally cannot go a single day without thinking about what's the difference between you and a girl.

>>40448132
it's not hurting, it's just nudging my brain and it's distracting, it makes me feel weird sometimes i just feel regret and that's all

i had one breakdown over it one night but it was just the straw that broke the camel's back as i was really in a bad spot mentally at the time

>>40448124
hrt has a smaller health risk than eating red meat

>>40448145
yeah i don't like the idea of being trans, taking drugs or getting a surgery

in my eyes it's no different than lobotomy

>>40448204
i dont think im lobotomized

>>40448179
i just need help locking in and finding my way out of this

>>40448177
you are repressing gender dysphoria and its taking a toll on you that you dont seem conscious of. the best action for people with gender dysphoria is taking hrt and living as your preferred gender. the latter isnt always possible for one reason or another and im sympathetic towards that. the former is readily obtainable if you are in a developed nation. this will turn out bad if you keep trying to ignore your dysphoria anon.

>>40448213
did you get surgery or are you just on hrt

>>40448240
just hrt

>>40448239
i can larp online as a girl i did that before but idk if it won't take toll on my social status and relationships

my online friends are supportive but they also are worried about my condition just as i am

i told them and myself that i'm not gonna use hrt or do anything stupid

>>40448290
why are you hesitant towards taking hrt? are you not interested in the primary effects?

>>40448204
Genuinely you don't sound different from where I was last year, I absolutely hate the idea of being a trans woman but am pretty comfortable with the idea of being a woman/woman with penis.

I still consider it a mental illness combined with a desire for attention. I 100% want to be a woman because of the positive attention associated with it, I don't want to be a trans woman because of the amount of negative attention associated with it.

I crossdress and do makeup and then at some point I started getting upset because I liked how I was looking but because I didn't look like a woman, it felt shameful. Started to have a desire to know what other people thought of how I looked, what their thoughts would be if I was a girl.

I struggled with how I looked my entire life and I'm now realizing before 30 that I wouldn't have struggled if I looked like a girl that whole time.

>>40448306
primary effects? like mood swings and such?
are we talking about testosterone or estrogen hrt?
i think the latter right?

>>40448324
idk i just like to be cute
i crossdressed but just to take a lower body pov shots for fun

i look good but i'd never pass because i'm a dude (wow) not like 30yo barney from a british pub male pattern baldness but you know i'm just a dude

if hrt is gonna influance my looks negatively (idc about hair growth as i shave everyday) on top of giving me even worse moodswings then i don't want it, no

>>40448346
estrogen. im talking breast development, fat redistribution, softer skin, losing fertility, possibly losing your ability to get erections.

As someone who transitioned, detransitioned, and now is transitioning again several years later. Let me tell you that the thoughts don't go away, but the post nut clarity becomes less over time. If your desires are truly focused on being a girl, and not being a man who is just wearing women's underwear or whatever, then denying that will only be denying yourself, and you can really end up hurting a lot of people by living a lie, yourself included.

>>40448435
>losing fertility, possibly losing your ability to get erections

will this help me?
how?
do i really sound like someone who will never be able to be with a girl for longer than 2 months?

>>40448447
hurting other people? how

>>40448399
HRT just makes you look more like a girl, if you're an ugly boy you'll be an ugly girl. HRT includes emotional regulation, if you have moodswings now then it can help

If you can't say "I like being a man, I like doing manly things" then you probably want to be a girl. If you enjoy being able to do manly things then you probably want to be a femboy.

You are speaking like you're dysphoric, Pretty sure straight men who are 100% happy with being men don't try on anything fem "for fun". It does sound like you want to be fem without being trans.

>>40448290
what are your online friends like

>>40448454
im just doing my due diligence to inform you of it. you can prevent erectile dysfunction if you make sure to get hard for a bit every couple of days. if you are worried about not being able to have kids you can bank your sperm before you start. idk what your dating life is like or who you are attracted to. aside from the last two points how do the rest of the effects of estrogen sound to you?

>>40448480
Hrt doesn’t do anything don’t listen to these groomers

>>40448447
This is where I am right now, realized I enjoy looking like a woman but would be happier dressing as one if I looked like one without makeup.

Realized hey I kinda wanna keep looking like a girl outside of the makeup and now I'm talking with doctor about HRT

>>40448499
did for me...

>>40448480
> It does sound like you want to be fem without being trans.
yeah that would fix things, but then again every trans wants to actually be the opposite gender instead of being trans so it's just wishful thinking

>>40448497
the only thing i'm interested about is getting rid or supressing those thoughts

>>40448533
they dont go away lil bro

>>40447163 (OP)
>thoughts go away after cumming
Its just a fetish you dont need hrt

Literally just AGP transvestic fetishism. You're not trans nigga

>>40448499
it does things obviously, just not the kind i'd like it to do

>>40448541
it's what i'm trying to tell them

>>40448518
Eh, I don't think so, every trans person on Reddit seems to get off to the idea of being a trans woman and the idea of having to be an actual woman never crosses their minds. I don't see any trans women fighting for bionic wombs to implant in themselves and it's literally a fact the majority of trans women do not get bottom surgery. They want to be trans women, not women.

I get the impression from too many trans people online that they think stereotyping and roleplaying is how to be a woman, I wouldn't look to trans people online if I wanted to know if I wanted to be a woman.

>>40448512
u look the same

>>40448553
Its ok to let it just be a fetish
Can always try hrt and see if it gives reverse dysphoria if u are unsure

>>40448553
You either are or you aren't and normal people don't spend this much time, on 4chan of all places, trying to argue about it

by the looks of it i just need to go cold turkey and see how it goes after a month or so
i'll just hang this over my desk and try to move on

thanks for all the replies

>>40447163 (OP)
I suggest you search deep within your mind and soul to determine if transitioning is right for you. Develop a plan of action and weigh your options, pros and cons as well. Realistically though, if you’re vehemently against transition, you should just admit you’re a fetishist. Continue to play sissy cross dress in your private time, jack off to tranny porn and continue to live your “normal” life as a man. Repeat the cycle. You will either realize it wasn’t right for you and accept you weren’t trans, or john 50 then rope because you held yourself back when deep down knew what you wanted from the beginning. The choice is yours in the end.

>>40448569
how lol? obv her facial structure is the same but she looks really different

>>40448606
it’s mostly just different hair eyebrows facial expression. Could have achieved the same with a bit of makeup

>>40447163 (OP)

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