>>40449939desu itโs definite schizofuel. I cycle between fetishizing my body/femininity, feeling content and connected to it โ- and then at times feeling like Iโm less than human. Female emotions and hormonal cycles suck. The first time I got fucked it was a moment of dawning horror โ I had no desire for dignity, or respect โ I just wanted his cock as often as I could get it. And all of these soft, sappy feelings crept in, even though he made no attempt at even basic conversation with me, I was eager to just. Submit to him. It felt like being brainwashed. Still better than attempting to transition in my case. Iโm 4โ10 and built like Tinkerbell.