But I’m not dysphoric or a trans woman I just enjoy it recreationally
I went to multiple trans woman events and it was so obvious.

>>40456754 (OP)
Literally so disgusting everyone on earth inherently hates me for being bed agp male moid cis straight creepy porn addictbrained faggot

>>40456754 (OP)
I've stopped taking hrt, after the reality of how unachievable this pipedream is, has settled in. It's excruciating to know what consequences my inaction will lead to, and it's way worse to be reminded daily how pointless it all really is.

>>40456754 (OP)
I'm not trans either but I'm AGP and have thought about starting. But I'm too old now, and ya like you actual real world trannies weird me out.

i'll take samefagging for 500 Alex

>>40458472
They don’t really weird me out
I just endlessly envy them ig?

>>40459762
Same applies to me, but I have genuinely no clue what makes me envy them

>>40458155
its worse whe you know deep down that transitioning isnt meant for someone like you
its for others
you are not "it"

>>40460055
I have spent so much time agonizing over this, at this point it feels intrinsic to me
There is no way for me to argue I might be trans, but I have peered over the fence, and ever since then it feels like the grass is greener on the other side.
That grass was not meant for me though, and no matter what, I will never be able to touch it, to lay in it, to simply belong there

>>40460311
it fucking hurts I am so sorry anone

>>40460453
Thanks, and I am sorry you're dealing with it as well. I always try to find some solace in commiseration,
so I glad to not be alone on this, but it's bittersweet, since I would you rather not suffer like me
When did all of this start for you?

>>40460648
The suffering of this sort started some 4 years ago with the longing being as old as 10 years
Who knows if it’s real before that. It only ever got worse. The hope I had a couple years ago…idk anymore
I’m it even sure I’m not lying. My life is a lie and so are my memories. Nothing matters. Envy guilt and shame