1/1
I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. You loved me. I didn’t see in the moment. My thoughts were clouded every day. I’m so sorry. I love you so much. I’m so so sorry for what happened. I’m sorry I cheated. I’m sorry I broke your heart. I’m sorry I betrayed you. I have no excuse. I wish you to the very best. I’m so broken up about what we nearly had. We were so close. I’m so sorry. I wish you were here to tell me it’s all going to be ok. I still can hear you comforting me. I still lean on you for support even tho you’re gone. I just wish you were here so I could show you I appreciate everything you do. I’m so sorry babe. Sorry for The deepest wounds I have created in our relationship. I’m terribly heart broken for the pain I caused you. You were everything to me. And now it’s over. A beautiful thing ruined. I’m devastated and in tears sobbing as I write this. Please forgive me. I know you wish to see me again some day but I have done nothing but hurt you. I deserve to die alone without ever being loved again. I’m so sorry you met me in such a dark place. Thank you so much for everything and helping me out of my mess. I promise you I’ll keep myself out of trouble and do the right things from now on. You were the right one. You were the one for me. I knew it then and I still know it true now. I’m so sorry I never told you how much you meant to me. I never showed it. I’m so sorry. There were so many things I didn’t know how to talk about. I was scared. I needed to get back into therapy and I didn’t make it in time. I lost you because I wasn’t at my best. But you found me at my worst and loved me anyway and that’s the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. You were perfect for me. I miss you so much babe. I hope I can be with you again. I hope you weren’t serious about me not being able to have children, I hope you understand the pressure I felt from your mother. They way she found out when I first met your family.

heynthx for thr rddit repost or bdd vomit whatever this is

>>40465998 (OP)
2/2 I think of the pain and sadness I have caused you and your family everyday. I think about the weirdness it must be to no longer be joined together in love. I don’t know if I’ll ever feel a love as strong as the one we shared. I’m so sorry. I feel awful and there isn’t a day that goes by where I regret losing you. I understand your decision to leave.

>>40466035
3/3
I didn’t want to become your ex. We could have worked this out. It’s my fault it didn’t. Please don’t blame yourself. I just wish you were still here for me to admit to you I fucked up. And to get the forgiveness I need so desperately. I wish we could talk about it someday face to face. I would appreciate the chance to apologize to you in full honesty.

>>40466101
4/4
I thought I didn’t deserve you. I was consumed with guilt and shame that love had found me. Yes I’m sick. Yes I’m in pain. And yes you were right. I miss you so much.

>>40465998 (OP)
up until
> I hope you weren’t serious about me not being able to have children, I hope you understand the pressure I felt from your mother. They way she found out when I first met your family.
I had really hoped this was my ex and she'd reach out to my eventually, maybe your ex feels the same. reach out and see what happens.

>>40466160
5/5
I will become a better version of myself. I hope I get the chance to show you someday.

>>40467433
Lucy, call me when you can. I still love you.

Work on yourself Lucy, we can always find solutions. I think about you everyday. I'm really hurt but my love for you will always be the most real thing I've ever felt. I had written you a card for your birthday but I didn't send it because I wasn't sure if you wanted to hear from me.

I always cared and always will. https://youtu.be/HEXWRTEbj1I?si=E_T3zGINwFAkep2O

>>40468382
<3

I'm still hurt like hell. I find it deeply tragic to have lost my wife, not to my own mistakes, but to mental illness. I know there is someone deeply good underneath all the bad there was, that's why I stayed through everything. That's why I took all the abuse. I kept hoping to see the real Lucy more often. I knew you loved me deeply and honestly, but were too insecure to express it and live it.

I stayed through all the trials and tribulations, through all the pain, because I believed in you more than anyone else. You were not only my wife, but my soulmate.

This is going to be my last message in this thread. I don't want you to confuse me with some random troll.

Tell your family I really loved em and I was really happy to be part of it. I still love you, even if it hurts. I can't bring myself to hate you because I know you really are. I just hope you can find a way to tame your inner demons so you can be the Lucy I know you can be.

With love,
Frederic

>>40468684
We will meet again.

>>40465998 (OP)
Yucky

https://youtu.be/EgT_us6AsDg?si=vi7Nqvca14nmflFO

>>40465998 (OP)
the image is so real but in my circumstance t4t pls have the patience to something work with me are hurting is for something it is not for nothing like you said i love you

>>40468879
mine was similar but also t4t on the receiving end (getting cheated on then later dumped). wish she wanted to fix it like OP does

>>40471151
I really do understand a pain I wish I never knew.

God I miss her so much.