>>40466213 (OP)I don't think you do anon. I have bpd and it's the fucking worst thing I keep hurting the people I love in just the stupidest ways and I feel deathly alone and I'm trying so hard with therapy to sort it out but I just keep fucking up and it's just the worst. I would never want to date me. I feel horrible for everyone who's ever had the displeasure of dating me. I am trying so hard and it just keeps happening and I just can't seem to solve it and every time I think I've solved it, I fuck up and it's just like fuck I'm never gonna be able to be a rock for anyone I'm never going to be able to feel secure love without ruining it by being a fucking asshole. Please save yourself the pain and don't date someone who's got these issues