>>40467958 (OP)I would normally never share this, but yes. W/o going too much into my life, I have basically been living in virtual isolation since 13. I'm 23 now. I'm able to cook & clean & otherwise function domestically within my own little world. And if you talked to me online, I'm a pretty chill person, and I'm able to hold a conversation. You'd never know something is up. But I have never held a job, I cannot drive, no real friends, no relationships, never dated or kissed a boy, nothing.
For some time I was able to live a life within these circumstances and be happy. But now I am so so so so so so so so lonely. Nobody has any idea what it's like to spend your entire teenage years and your entire adulthood with nothing and nobody. It feels like living in solitary confinement.
I finally started hormones at the beginning of this year and since then have only emotionally spiraled. I'm high 24/7, I stopped exercising or cooking most of my meals, I'm so emotional all the time. I know its only a matter of time. But the truth is, nobody cares, because nobody has any reason to care. To the world at large I don't even exist.