i started hrt maybe 5 days ago. i’ve not told my parents, not because they don’t know i’m trans, or because they hate trans people, they’re very accepting, i’m just worried they’ll freak out. i am freaking out i realised last night that what i’m doing is fucking crazy and not clever, i’m fucking up my body by doing this, wasting all my money, but also i’m 20 and i really don’t want to put it off any longer, i’m already ugly enough!!! i’m so worried that i’ll be really alone and isolated in a couple of years, and when i get old, i’m fucking up my chance at just being “normal” and happy. last night i told my friend i was gonna cut out the pills altogether and that i wasn’t gonna do it to myself and then i cried harder and longer than i have for years and years and years so i kinda think maybe the estrogen has something to do with my ongoing meltdown, like i know it kind of messes up my emotions. i feel really anxious like i never have before CONSTANTLY. then again i’ve only been taking these pills for a couple of days and it’s probably all in my head. i don’t know what i want to do, i took my pills this morning after i said i wouldn’t and i only feel more upset.

take your pills alice

>>40473607 (OP)
if you are actually trans, the only way you're really fucking up your body is ruining your chances at having bio children. if you even slightly feel like you might want kids in the future, store gametes NOW. Seriously.
otherwise, yeah the anxiety probably isn't because of the estrogen but because you are making a big decision that will have permanent consequences (hopefully positive, but who knows!). Take some time to really think on and envision your futures with or without HRT, and why you are doing this in the first place.

>>40473607 (OP)
most people have a lot of emotional turmoil on the first week of E, you're literally changing your hormone dominant system. Keep taking your pills, it gets easier, then harder and then way easier I promise

>>40473607 (OP)
You're messing up your body for life OP, that anxiety is because you know that deep down. Stop before it's too late!!

>>40474684
Stfu tripfag nigger people like you should rot and die forever

>>40473607 (OP)
Just tell your parents. If they accept you will have a real support network and if they don't accept you you will have real problems to cry about.