i don't know how to explain this because i'm not good with words and i would have to spend thousands of words to explain what's happening. so i'm gay but i've never been attracted to other gays. no, it's not internalized homophobia or some other bullshit. i'm just not attracted to men who want the penis. i've hooked up with hundreds of gay men and they all want at the very least see the dick, touch it, and suck it. when that happens, i make a scene and i've even attracked them physically because they had said they were top and they weren't. after living in gay cities and spending years in gay clubs, gay saunas, gay websites, i've realized that i'm incompatible with other gays because i want to be penetrated like a woman. and gays are just different. i like men. gays are different even when they seem masculine. i'm not attracted to all straight guys, but all guys i'm attracted to turn out to be gay because they have that type of genuine masculinity that gays lack

this brings me to the next point. i want to transition as i'm naturally feminine and gays are repulsed by femininity and i'm repulsed by femininity too. i can't help it, i just don't find gays attractive. i want to transition but that wouldn't change shit because guys who seek trans women want the penis, so i would just create more problems. and there is no market for post-op trans women.

>>40476541 (OP)
yeah you're cooked

i want to have sex as a woman and not as a gay or as trans. and there's no bigger ick for me than a man who wants the penis. i get very very very angry when i hear cis people having sex or when they make jokes about it. i get ferocious. i want to destroy them. i picture in my mind mutilating them starting fromt heir genitals and torturing them for hours. I JUST IMAGINE THAT OK? I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING . i suspect bryan kohberger felt the same. i don't get triggered when lesbians have sex or when gays have sex, i get very very angry when it's a straight man and straight woman having sex, especially if they are attractive, because they achieve a sexual fusion of bodies that i will never achieve. they have the right parts and i have not... i was denied the most important life force, sex. i just can't bring myself to be attracted to a man who wants dick and i don't feel comfortable having sex with a man while i have a penis. it disgusts me

do it if you want to

>>40476541 (OP)

Your pessimism is your undoing. There are wonderful men who will date pre and post op trans women, passing or not. They're bisexual twinkhon enjoyed. My boyfriend of 2 years loves me and is supportive of my decision to get SRS.

>>40476587
>>40476587
do what?

>>40476596
you are so stupid. he says that he supports srs then we will see how long it lasts before he dumps you for another fag. you are so naive. there is no discrete dating market for post-op trans women

>>40476596

Also i am a passoid FYI and willing to prove it if you care and need to assume I'm a hon. Just drop a discord. But my BF loved me before FFS

>>40476616

He won't dump me, he said he would marry me and have a kid with me. We love each other. I trust him 100%.

>>40476541 (OP)
>i can't help it, i just don't find gays attractive.
I'm similar. I don't find gay ppl attractive. They have to exude a masculine energy for me to be attracted to them.

>>40476541 (OP)
>i've hooked up with hundreds of gay men
You're old and used up. Get a hobby and stop being a gross slur

>>>40476617
>he doesn't love you, he is a fag, and he "loved" you before ffs exactly because he wanted to see the man in you. You are so stupid. I hope you end up dismembered and scattered in several dumpsters. Trannies like you are doing a huge disservice. And god knows what kind of ugly fag autogynephilic egg this boyfriend looks like

Being a DL man on grindr that exclusively tops is so nice when I am horny

>>40476749

He's not, he's very sweet and I love him. He likes my FFS He just wants me to be happy. He introduced me to his mother, brother, and whole extended family. He is beautiful and looks like a viking warrior. He's the love of my life, and NOTHING you say will take my happiness away!!!

>>40476774
no need to defend yourself or talk about this with random anons

>>40476541 (OP)
>i've hooked up with hundreds of gay men
Gross. Anyway, you obviously seem uncomfortable with your dick, so reading further I wasn't surprised to see that you're considering trooning out. And you're right, an ax wound isn't very popular. You're basically fucked until you sort out your issues with men, you know, wanting to have sex with you and not use you as a masturbation aid.
Anyway, I'm jealous of straight sex because it can be spontaneous and romantic. It takes me more time to prepare for sex than it does to actually do it, and it feels like a medical procedure half of the time. Haven't bothered in years.

>>40476541 (OP)
You are a gay man that wants to transition to attract straight men
holy shit Blanchard was right

>>40476541 (OP)
kek are all bottoms this retarded?

>want at the very least see the dick, touch it, and suck it
then stop chasing vers type of dudes, loser

>i want to transition as i'm naturally feminine
then chop your cock off and find another "masculine" loser to stick it in your wound

>>40476774
wait until she transitions

>>40476834
I should have worded it better. I've attempted to hook up. The minute they touch my dick, it's over

>>40476854
whether Blanchard is right or not is immaterial. I can't help what I'm attracted to

>>40477131
you're a nasty fag. I chase top, people who claim to be exclusively top, and yet once we try to hook up, they want dick. Are you fucking stupid? Have you ever realized that people lie?

>>40477131
this is why i want to torture and dismember cis people having sex (straight, not fag) because I can't have a dick.

>>40476541 (OP)
Fuck you for this clickbait title. I thought I was finally going to have a place to seethe about breeders.