>>40479863 (OP)I was rejected by the love of my life.
I've done a lot of things to make myself feel better, but...
No, I'm not happy.
Well no, but I'm not sad either, I'm too delusional to fall into depression but too crazy to experience constant bliss.
>>40479863 (OP)the very opposite of that actually
I work too much to experience emotions other than anger and depression.
>>40479863 (OP)why would I ever be happy
>>40479863 (OP)no because my dick isnโt either being sucked or entering a vagina rn but iโm chill enough not to do anything life ruining over it like some others have
>>40479863 (OP)no. I have moments throughout my day where I forgot about feelings and get lost in what I'm doing but other than that I'm pretty cognisant of the fact that I don't enjoy being alive.
I know happiness. I'm acquainted with the good.
>>40479863 (OP)Iโm alive. I guess Iโm doing ok relatively, but Iโm not fulfilled