Why does the loneliness feel so much worse at night?

>>40482652 (OP)
In my case it’s because it’s only until I get in bed at night that I finally give my brain a chance to be left alone with its thoughts, which are generally always depressing and suicidal. During the day I try to keep myself distracted with other things so I don’t end up becoming a sobbing mess in front others

>>40479788

Just be happy you never loved at all because the pain is ten times worse.

>>40482703
The thing is I'm constantly alone with my thoughts, even during the day I'm very reserved and depressed. Just for some reason at night it feels 100× worse. Maybe it's the blutz waves from the moon..

>>40482716
I don't know how to love unfortunately. When I'm alone I can respect people, understand their feelings, and reflect. But I always end up treating them like objects or emotional sponges. Idk what's wrong with me so I don't even try to approach.

Time spent with an ex isn't wasted, though. Unless they were lying the whole time. Life is inherently wasteful, things don't play out like a movie. Most of what you do will not matter.

>>40482652 (OP)
the loneliness is worse for me in the day. the sun shines a light on all the filth and ugliness and failures of my life while the night gives me a chance to forget and drown in the darkness

most mammals sleep at night and do so with a companion warmth and safety, so its a natural thing to do to snuggle up with another at night and when youre alone it just feels like shit

>>40482966
I don't mean for that last part to sound so glum. It does kinda suck, but don't hold resentment over it because it's just inevitable. Love hard and die young lol

>>40482652 (OP)
Because at night your alone?

>>40482992
I'm always alone, even when I'm not.

>>40482973
Sunrises make me optimistic, anon. I'm sorry you have to goblinmode in the dark. I don't know you but I'll think about you sometimes