>>40484459>what if you ended up finding a man who loved you whether or not you took hrt - would that be better or worse in your mind?I wanted to write that in a prev reply but wasn't sure if it would be too much text.
I love my current bf and am deeply monogamous, so I would be probably considering suicide first. If I found a man who loved me without hrt, and I had a definitive answer, it would be the same I feel like.
I never had a lot of attachement to being male, even in a biological sense and saw myself as a genderless robot. I don't really care if I would lose my balls, etc if I gained boobs vice versa, but I like the current me as thats the me thats been experiencing the most happiness in the last years. Its the small stuff like people appearing nicer, but then you have downsides like men trying to help you on stuff you were just thinking for a moment about, that feels quite demeaning. Idk, it all levels out rn to me and maybe looking like a woman edges out infront right now.
If I hadnt been on hrt for nearly 5y now, and I was my gay 16y old self, if I found a normal dude my age instead of old men that wanted to sexually abuse me, or even my childhood friend got together with me, I would have never took hrt ofc