I wanna listen to the transphobes and believe them, that it's all in my head and that I don't really wanna be a girl, I know I will never actually go through with it.

But, I still feel sad, why do I still feel sad about it? And it never goes away, what do they want me to do? How can they help me with the sadness of not being a faggot, I can't stand it, why won't they give me an honest solution?

>>40485278 (OP)
hard drugs

>>40485345
many such faggots, me included

>>40485345
The only thing that makes me feel like me is that I'm a sober prude, if I start doing drugs then I have lost everything

>>40485278 (OP)
I wonder whether the reason why I was so transphobic as a teen was because I was repping, a bad person, or both.
Now my brain did some weird flip and I've also caught "the sadness of not being a faggot"

>>40485278 (OP)
the common opinion is that it's better to be a sad man than a troon

all trans women can be happy, and in fact would be happier, not taking hrt and just letting themselves be feminine men

>>40486249
That's not possible. Being a feminine man rapper is very sad because your body only gets more incongruent with time and nobody really supports you after you detroon you are just left being a sad man.

>>40486259
Nah, ”feminine men” very quickly turn into picrel without intervention. They can maybe be happy with it for 2-4 years max but masculinization WILL happen and then they won’t be feminine at all anymore. How happy will trans women be then? Hrt is a must

>>40486259
not everything is about how you look

>>40486316
correct

>>40486321
men are either born with feminine behavior or they aren't
you can't get it in a pill

>>40486316
>>40486321
there is just so much more unbearable shit to being a feminine man than looking bad. looking bad is only the beginning of the end there

>>40486249
>twinkdeath

literally just boymode