20, transfem, my post is too long for one so I’m splitting it into comments.

For context this took place when I was around 13-14. At the time I wasn't really openly trans, except to two people, one of them doesn't matter, the other was Lyra.

Lyra was a cis chaser I met at an LGBTQ center on one of our meet and greets, a sort of way to see the older trans generation and connect them with the newer one. At the time she was 18 and probably the youngest adult there.

She had jobs housesitting and drawing and we bonded over stuff like love for cosplay, art, and both being somewhat furry adjacent. By the end we exchanged numbers because I told her how much I was struggling to draw, and she offered to teach me tips and tricks. We started to message and show eachother art, making some of our OCs, and the age gap was getting easier to forget. Things had been bad at home for a while, and I practically lived at two old friends' houses. It was understood I generally didn’t go home most days.

I eventually got into a fight and packed the small amount of stuff I did have at home and left saying they didn’t have to see me anymore and I would do fine on my own. Then I got hungry and tired and needed somewhere to sleep. My other friends were basically all sleeping and only Lyra answered when I told her what was happening. I told her not to call the police, so she ended up picking me up and we spent the night at some guys house she was sitting. Know my parents really did not and will not give a shit about me. They saw me occasionally but I was always attending school so nobody came looking.

When I had to go, she gave me an address to an apartment she shared, only using it to keep her stuff and sleep between jobs, and said I was welcome there if things ever got bad. Months later we started sharing her room and even decorating it with the art we made. It was honestly the best I had been treated in my life and I didn't regret living with her at that time

>>40491716 (OP)
After a year with her I got into nsfw art, and started uploading on a twitter account, then fur affinity for fur stuff, and she found out. After talking she said it was okay to make stuff like that to express myself and that's probably where everything went wrong, now she started to encourage me to make more adult themed work, showed me softcore, and eventually straight up porn.

It never really dawned on me that this she was 20 when I was 15, it was fucked up, but she was the only person who accepted that I was a person. I started to dress more feminine, starve myself while doing light exercise so I could pass better, all so she would complement me.

Eventually, she suggested I do my own cosplays, and she helped me along picking some out for us to match in, and helping me dress myself up. They became more and more sexual over time and she would try to match with me. I felt loved and praised and I passed well so I played into the archetypes she thought were cute, even going so far as to roleplay as them.

At that point her roommate started to step in saying he was uncomfortable and didn’t want her doing that with me anymore, and she accused him of being perverted, so he moved out and to help cover the costs I took on commissions.

This was our life, drawing together, watching tv, cosplaying, cooking, and we even started sharing a bed since I couldn’t sleep well alone. We moved the bed she bought me there, but still spent most of my time in her space. By then she wasn’t hiding her sexual intent, she made passes at me, said how cute I looked, hugged, touched, and even kissed me. Once she told me she wanted to be with me we started dating.

I thought I would have to see my parents again needing new vaccinations but the pandemic happened, so I texted my dad to enroll me in online classes, and from there I got my class info by school email. 2 years later I graduated, and while parent contact was sparse before, it ceased after that

Did not read. Do not care.

>>40491739
With that we moved into a 1 bedroom apartment, I got on estrogen with her help, and have lived an otherwise okay life up until now. Fast forward to two weeks ago, I found a flashdrive she has for her laptop with low storage on our bed, and being stupid I decided to plug it in to my pc, and on it I found both loli, shota, babyfur, and even old pictures of me. Some in old cosplays, some when sleeping, videos of me undressing in the bathroom, she even recorded our less sfw interactions and it just disgusted me, I haven’t told her and I don’t know what to do now. She’s helped me a lot and I don’t know how to live without her but it just disgusted me so much.

>>40491740
Why are you commenting then?

>>40491764
she'll most likely dump you once you turn 23 anyways and then move on for another underage tranny

>>40491790
I really doubt that, she genuinely does love me I just don't know if I can love her anymore seeing this kind of degenerate shit

thesis: chasers will be chasers at heart. she was probably motivated by that to at least some degree.
antithesis: she does seem to have cared for you for a long while. this does seem to imply she also had genuinely good intent to some degree.
synthesis: ask her about bottom surgery to determine how much of a chaser she is/was and/or ask her about why she was interested in you. the key (at least to me) would be determining when she started being interested in you and why at that point.

>>40491764
yeah she sounds like a groomer alright.

>>40491764
oh jesus

>>40491821
see if shes into abdl. those fags are still degenerates but they're not necessarily groomers outright.

>>40491856
it was the loli and shota stuff that bothered me

>>40491834
I genuinely don't know what to do

>>40491878
frankly i think you should be much more concerned that she was recording you without telling you
the 2D stuff wouldn't bother me without that added context. like the stuff she was doing with you was objectively much sketchier than some cartoons. only you can decide how you feel about what she did with you, but recording you without your consent or knowledge is really not a good sign

>>40491957
I am, but some of them are just pics even I have, but others are vids of me stripping in the bathroom when I was younger, or when I'm sleeping with her having messed with my clothing. I don't even know where to start

>>40491764
That pretty Hot, I wish I had a groomer like her. All I got is old man who are older than my dad grooming me. Loli and shota is just fantasy anyway, she a keeper, should be happy someone actually want you.

It suck being alone,I been there .

>>40492603
I'm sorry... But I just don't think I can get over this.

>>40492761
I can imagine it's a really big shock. I do think you should bring it up. She might try to deny to see what you know but i guess it's pretty concrete. I have no clue how to handle things like this but talking might help you regain some level of trust with each other while you're looking at ways to live seperately. Try your best to avoid shutting down. Probably also helps to find some other trustworthy person to talk to in the area.

>>40491764
Dump her. I was going to say that like 15 to 18 isn't really pedo and people get engaged with bigger agegaps to minors in some states. But the story just gets worse and worse, this is definitely a furry predator.

>>40491716 (OP)
>>40491739
>>40491764
hawt wish a man did this 2 me