How feminine were you before figuring out how to tranny? I hear a lot of varying stories on this.

Or just, what type of person were you in the part of your life before trooning out.

I have been very manly, had a repper goatee and people say I remind them of grandpa (He was a miner and military guy and was very proud of it but was kind of an asshole, to give you an idea of it). Personally, I even feel some of this masculine way of thinking is something I picked up and I don't really want it anymore. Sometimes I beat up on my friends or family and it always made me feel awful afterwords.

>>40493496 (OP)
I think I'm more autistic than I thought and also extremely jealous of women. Im as feminine as a faggot younger brother is

>>40493496 (OP)
not feminine at all
short
skinny
straight As
incredibly horny
frequent fantasies of violence
drug use

>>40493496 (OP)
I was not really feminine at all as a boy/teenager. I was a weird loner. I had submissive fantasies and I always had a weird jealousy of girls though and trooned at 19, have been on hrt for 14 years and never detrooning

>>40493519
WOMAN!!!!

>>40493534
i don't care much for girls but when I clock a tranny I feel horrible and empty inside

>>40493519
i wish I wasn't a fucking retard with terminal brainrot and could study for more than 5 minutes reliably so I could get A's like that

Hrt is school shooter erasure. And that's why I support it.

>>40493555
lol i kinda felt like doing that, all i ever did was bully the faggy friend I had a crush on though

>>40493561
Why couldn't you just be gay with him?

>>40493567
I believe in loyalty and I am already gay to someone else, and he is bi so he had a girl anyways.

I just wish I wasn't fucking retarded so I could pass these classes and get a good job though man. I don't know how straight A cells do it, a lot of my friends do that its not like they know the material any less than I do but I am pretty goddamn autistic and I can't even talk right so who fucking knows.

>>40493572
god i need a drink or a tranny friend who isn't on the verge of killing himself to talk to, god just fucking anything please make it stop

>>40493579
i killed my own thread sorry lol

>>40493496 (OP)
i came from a rather conservative background, not necessarily in terms of politics but my family were just extremely conformist and looked down on anyone with a tad of self-expression or who was even remotely different from them, in general i'm from a culture that has "tall poppy syndrome" where you're meant to just have no personality and be extremely humble about your achievements to a point of self-deprecation. my mom's attitude to anything even slightly out of the norm was "what will the neighbours/relatives/literal strangers think?". as a result i was basically just the most guy of all time until i moved to france to study back in 2019. once i was away from my parents i could experiment with self-expression and sexuality a bit more, i did the whole fem twink thing for a while (painted nails and wore light makeup and dated guys and so on) and within like six months of starting to do this i was on estrogen. haven't looked back since and i'm basically just a regular woman now.

i want a bullet in my brain

>>40493496 (OP)
Hypermasc.
I was training to be a professional strongman.

will trooning out fix my retard brain that can't do paperwork, genuinely my only dreams are to troon out and be an engineer

>>40493496 (OP)
I was an ugly honboy before transitioning into an ugly hon

>>40493496 (OP)
i was an ugly disgusting unkempt man and now i'm an ugly disgusting unkempt man with breasts

>>40493496 (OP)
For me it manifested more as reclusiveness, muted affect etc.

I didn't want to be "seen" or to exist in the world as I was.

>>40493513
Autism isn't real

>>40493857
shut up queer

>>40493496 (OP)
5'6, always underweight, with wide hipbones. someone called my pre trooning pics as poon before T. Puberty was weak. at 15 I was looking at my classmates and thinking "why I'm so small compare to them". My height growth stopped at around 16. Closed gay since single digit age. Unironically, homophobic, don't blame me I was living in conservative country. Tho I was able to crossdress secretly few times at age of 6. At 12 I started having long hair. Was called fag by parents and classmates.

I had been male faling before transition, even when i had stubbles. When i was doing retail when i was young i was called by she/her by customer and when i tell them im a dude they didnt believe me and they even tried examine me through window and i feeled like i was an animal in a zoo. And just last year i was disappointed how my hair are straightened and went to have it cut and the hairdresser was like admiring how i looked like a girl the whole time she cut my hair, she made me regret cutting my hair this short.

>>40493496 (OP)
Not at all.

>>40493496 (OP)
Socially racist(I Said the nword a lot but have never had malice towards any specific race) balding incel

>>40493496 (OP)
As unmanly as i could get away with without being called out for it. My physical apperance gave me distress so i almost never did anything about it. I was this short stick thin little nerd who almost always had some version of shitty mop top beatles hair because i didnt care about getting my hair cut or what i looked like. I was so far in hating my appearance it didnt matter. The only things i liked about myself was how thin i was and how short i was. These were probably early versions of dysphoria if im being real.

I wasnt femanine but i was small and cute and ppl just assumed i was gay off the cuff.

>>40493496 (OP)
cut my hair to a mullet
tried to grow a beard
tried to get bigger
saw myself in the mirror and i broke down
"i can't keep doing this"
so i CD for awhile (pic rel) till i got on hrt and really started my life
year and a half in and i couldnt be happier

>>40493496 (OP)
sleeping 12+ hours a day, if not asleep either locking into work or getting high and watching youtube. trying to be the men i was secretly attracted to. failing at all attempts of normalcy over and over again.

>>40493496 (OP)
kindergarden:
>few friends
>only foids
>dont remember much
>appearently p flamboyant
primary
>flamboyancy continues
>more foid friends
>get bullied for looking gay, long hair, feminine, late bloomer
>join theatre group
>play female lead multiple years in a row
secondary school:
>bullying continues
>puberty starts
>become depressed asf, both from changes and bullying
>start repper chud arc
>still turn out more gynoid than my friends
>never the sporty type, continue being in theatre group though, be myself there
>continued bullying cus of wide hips, resistance to getting hair cut, weird attachement to one boy at a time, small shoulders, feminine appearenace etc
>bully neurodivergents to feel better abt myself
tertiary school:
>see error
>be flamboyant again
>have a few moid partners
>be femboy
>start hrt just after it ends
now, college:
>go by they them
>take hrt
>dont go by deadname
still dysphoric asf, but i think im better now. Also yes being a theymab coper helps only half but if i pretended to be a woman i'd feel like a skinwalker which would be worse

>>40493496 (OP)
it depends a little
>in my teens
just an awkward nerd that wasn't feminine at all
>in my 20's
still an awkward nerd but got into stuff like skincare, had to be clean shaved everyday but still didn't figure out i was pretty much a tranny for a little while

Got bullied for acting too feminine in early highschool. I tried so hard to hide my faggoty behaviour.

6 years, 6 years and my step dad still dead names me by accident, I have to believe he does it on purpose

>>40493496 (OP)
When I was in high school I deliberately did things like squatting and shaving and moisturizing my legs so they'd appear like girls' legs, wore makeup, did my hair in feminine ways, wore slightly feminine clothing in public in general without it crossing into crossdressing territory.
For the past 4 years of deliberately not being trans, I've stopped that. My hair has been short. I have not worked out. I have not worn makeup. I guess I've tried taking care of my skin still but it still got worse. I also did trans voice training right before realizing I was trans.
Transitioning now, I feel like, is partly going to be reawakening that part of myself.

I think I was like genderless? I was always confused and on the outside of male/boy gender things. I did sports cause my mom and dad made me but did not understand why I should care about competition, I did not see any appeal for most of the things the boys liked to play with like guns or video games. I thought boys were obnoxious especially as a teenager but did not present as a flamboyant gay kid so couldn't hang out with girls. I would occasionally get harassed for feminine behavior but I was quiet and unassuming enough that there was always more obvious targets to pick on. Usually the only people I got along with as a teenager were girls who talked to me first and encouraged me to hang out with them.

>>40493496 (OP)
as a kid i was always soft, socialized more with girls and got bullied for not being very masculine. plus i hated getting my hair cut.
when i was 11 i decided i wanted to be a woman but i transitioned at 16