i get more dysphoric when i get treated as a man instead of a woman even though im FTM. it makes me feel more like a woman than anything because i dont look or sound anything close to a man, i havent thought of how it connects yet but it relates to being a woman in the end. its most likely because i feel dumb when it happens. this is obviously only an IRL thing. does this happen to someone else or what? no im not faketrans im just a bit self aware

>>40497298 (OP)
Me too. I think it just surprises me and reminds me of all the times I haven't passed and how literally nothing is different I guess that person just is more forgiving on what a women might look like. Idk it's nice but also feels weird
>t mtf

>>40497298 (OP)
i was going to flame you but this is how i felt after the last time i went to the tsa and the lady there pressed the woman button on the scanner and then had a dude pat me down after my crotch was glowing on the screen

>>40497298 (OP)
lot of parallels in a lot of groups
>trans women feeling more shit in clothes that require more feminine figure
>or cis women that are more flat/masc for that matter
>dudes in activities that highlight they ain't as masculine
so this might be the case for you, or might be bdd, or might be a mix

>>40497298 (OP)
i feel similarly and i think its the internalized transphobia of telling myself IWNBAM or being severely brainwormed about being clocky or something, so i end up feeling like a very obvious gigapooner somehow tricking cis people because theyre so clueless about trans people. everyone says i pass well and that i could stealth but regardless i feel like a creepy larping woman

>>40497298 (OP)
get your ass back in the kitchen, fag

>>40497298 (OP)
Why are there so many psyop ftm threads?

>>40501132
how is this a psyop when mtfs say the same shit all the time

>>40497298 (OP)
>>40498788
im ftm and also relate, but this board is digital self harm. i think getting off of it would help a lot. and therapy

>>40502877
>digital self harm
just look away tf

>>40502877
therapists are either hugboxxers or straight up completely aganist transexuals which id tolerate more but still wouldnt help. 4chan self hating tranners keep it real which makes you stay more grounded. treating this board as Le scary lgbTs is an overreaction

>>40502898
you should tell that to everyone with a vice ever and record their reaction
>>40503696
i never said it was scary but calling a bunch of depressed losers on a basket weaving forum 'real' for using bots and posting negative feedback cycle material is embarassing

>>40497298 (OP)
you just feel like they're doing it out of pity right? if it makes you feel any better i still feel this sometimes and im a 6 years stealth mtf

>>40497298 (OP)
that pooner is so adorable

>>40497298 (OP)
I relate a little. I am viewed as male 99% of the time, but sometimes I think it's pretty crazy. I'm 5'3, 115 pounds, everyone assumes I'm gay, it amazes me that I pass as much as I do, even when I get she'd on occasion. It feels like a psyop and everyone is hugboxxing me.

>>40504235
heckin hopefuel dood

>>40504172
yes exactly, and it most likely is given the circumstances. i guess it never goes away

>>40504762
it never fully went away for me but at least it got a lot better. could probably fully cure it if i got past my brainworms because fundamentally i think it's just imposter syndrome (internalized transphobia if you will, at least in my case)

Yeah so essentially your brain can tell that youre being patronized as a woman pretending to be a man rather than actually being treated as a male