Trans women who only let themselves have sex with/date men AFTER transitioning.

What causes this?

>>40501839 (OP)
i feel too gross as a man to ever feel lovable or let anyone ever see my body.

>>40501839 (OP)
development of AGP meta attraction
contrary to popular belief, AGPs are generally straight

>>40502094
straight men don't exist tho

>>40501839 (OP)
If a gay man likes me that implies im man.
If a straight man likes me that implies im woman.
(Blah blah blah straight men would never fuck a tranny blah blah blah)

>>40502118
but most men are bisexual

>>40502127
weird then

>>40501839 (OP)
agp+insecurity probably

>>40501839 (OP)
Ironically, I think transitioning helped me come to terms with my homosexuality. I was a huge homophobe back in the day

>>40504749
Why are AGPs like this?

>>40501839 (OP)
autistic black and white thinking and internalized homophobia

>>40501839 (OP)
when i imagined having gay sex it didn't really turn me on. im much more romantically than sexually attracted already, and had feelings for male friends, but repressed it for the previously listed reason plus thinking to myself that being gay was too rare for it to be me. i transitioned fairly early (at 16) before i really had to confront my sexuality, and doing so gave me the clarity to realize i was attracted to men

>>40504827
did others encourage you to be gay?

>>40504870
my parents and friends probably would've accepted me, and everyone else already thought i was (or at least called me a faggot and shoved me around for 3 years) so i probably shouldve, but again i really thought it was too rare and psyched myself into repressing it. did have a lot of people ask me to just be gay though when i came out as trans

>>40504914
I'm not asking if they accepted you (hypothetically), I'm asking if they were willing to talk about you being gay without you having to bring it up, and then were supportive.

>>40504920
my parents had friends who were gay married in california before obergefell and i knew them and their son, and when i asked my dad what to say to bullies who called me a faggot he didn't tell me to deny it but to call them bigots, so kinda

>>40504937
maybe it's different when you are their son, vs just a friend though

>>40504945
they always told me they'd love me no matter what. on some level i never believed them and im not sure why, but some of my first memories are knowing i couldn't tell my parents that i wished i was a girl (sorry thats not about sexuality but the same kinda thing applied once it became relevant) ultimately though that was all baseless because when i eventually did come out (as trans first, then straight after) they accepted me immediately, so they probably would've if id come out as gay a couple years earlier

>>40504975
I think a lot of abusive parents learn to use performative verbal love (I love you this means so much!) to cover for their otherwise abuse.

>>40504986
i don't think they abused me though

>>40505141
there's a reason they weren't ok with you being gender non conforming

>>40505143
i don't know for sure that they weren't, i have a few memories of them letting me. i might've internalized it by being scolded at friends houses or daycare maybe?? idk

>>40501839 (OP)
i'm trans already, might as well admit that I never really liked women and I'm into men

>>40501839 (OP)
Dislike of own body.

its so sad tho cause when i became gay i was attracted to femminine men,i love who they are CAUSE they act like women and i dont care what they look like its personality based no matter how many surgerys or tiktok makeup tricks you do it will all come down to how you feel inside and thats what im attracted to but alas some 20 y old aspiring trannys think thats beign a chaser while i fuck 100 kg shaved boys with femminine penises and womenly birthing hips.... ;^( gay top for masc bottom is an enigma to me i guess its fun but i could never love someone who is equal or more masculine than me thats like me fucking my masc teacher or masc work mates that would never work its just a stupid sex fantasy and not true natural attraction to me. i look for my mothers traits in my gay lovers and the more caring and nurturing and femminine they are the more it pulls at my heartstrings and makes me wanna fuck them like theyre my fair lady *shy gentleman tips fedora*

>>40504792
idk ask them im not one

>>40504792
its probably just a paraphilia, they cant get aroused without dressing or looking like a woman or it could just be an insecurity and feelings of perfectionism like stated before

>>40501839 (OP)
Because I wanna feel comfortable in my own body first? How is this even a question?

>>40505694
are trans women more perfectionist than cis women?

>>40501839 (OP)
dysphoria