>>40505455No matter how much I imagine the other person as a woman (ill concede they are because Im mentally ill like them) they still, especially the preop and more so the non op, have a penis. See Im really trying but... realistically i will never need to know their anatomy. I dont mind calling them women and treating them like women if they pass. If they pass then they have fooled me.
But you see Im a chronic porn consumer. If they were really women then what prevents my mind from seeing transwomen and ciswomen the same. Ive told myself they are the same for months now. But I cant get off to ciswomen anymore. I can get off to transwomen even with a vagina. So at the subconscious level Im still detecting a difference. I do believe they are women. So then why doesnt my mind play along? I shouldnt observe a difference in the two stimuli. Obviously I could break the tolerance but thats another feat in itself for me. And Im not trying to convince you. Its me Im trying to convince. So please try to understand me.