When did you realise you internalised the board's rethoric so bad that the brainworms will follow you no matter how hard you try to get rid of them?

its better rhetoric than other sites

>>40505372
I'm talking about the self hatred caused by it more than anything.

>>40505343 (OP)
I realised when I talked irl with some clocky but happy Reddit trannies and they didn't completely know what I meant by brainworms. Why can't I just be happy and clocky like them?

>>40505732
i kinda was earlier on, and then i came here

I don't want to be clocky and happy. I want to mog hons.

>>40505343 (OP)
Thought "its over" while looking in the mirror last week. Im usually am pretty optimistic about things. I told myself id take a hiatus but we see how that went. (Tbf sometines yall are sweet and cool)

>>40505821
who doesn't?

>>40505867
hons/ugly bitches

>>40505874
do they just give up? what's the logic here?

>>40505343 (OP)
i've realized this board didn't give me brainworms they were just dormant inside me.

>>40505343 (OP)
When I gave up on getting hrt, because it was over for me and I would only ruin the optics for my trans friends whom I care dearly about
I was already in tune with self destructive thoughts and a mentality that put me down whenever I tried something and fucked up, it’s a surprise I never became an incel,
Now I finally stopped repressing and it’s never been more over. The other day I asked a normal ass trans woman when she wanted to stop boymoding because I assumed she was doing that

Why do trannies blame it on the board and not on themselves? You're just aware.

>>40505343 (OP)
I could not call anyone who does not strive for self awareness to be my equal

I've been here for so long that I stopped caring, and I still maintain the idea that honesty is better, these people are terrible at times but I prefer that to hypocrites.

>>40505732
theyre ruinign optics doe.

>>40505343 (OP)
internalizing this boards rhetoric makes u miserable but significantly less insufferable than reddit hons or annoying narcissistic twitter passoids. id rather have the brainworms even if i want to kms

>>40505343 (OP)
/tttt/ brainworms are a truth that is subconscious in the minds of all trannies but rejected and repressed by mainstream tranny spaces in the pursuit of ideological purity