What is the meaning of my life if the people I love the most distance themselves from me and do not answer my messages and when they see me they do not talk to me, what am I to them then and if that were not enough my best friend so to speak never treats me well and the boy I want to be my boyfriend every time I get close to him distances himself from me then why do I exist then?

>why do I exist then?
To find new friends

To experience all of this, there's really no other reason so it's up to us to make it the best it could be, that is the beauty of life, to carry with such terrible burden.