>>40567832>I internalized my dysphoria as an inferiority complex around being male I assumed everyone had.oh god that hit me way, way too hard because it's what i went thru. Only I stuck with it into my senior year and only started humoring transition in college. Even then it waited until I was fucking 24, because I still kept going back and forth, back and forth.
All of that shit despite literally knowing i was trans since around 12, b/c of how brainwormed I was from being on 4chan + being surrounded by conservatives + the only picture i got of trans ppl outside of here was stuff like south park and susan's place that had me utterly sure i'd never even remotely pass and would just seem comparable to a pedo or some other super perv shit and that it'd be something i regret. Like I even got on hrt at like 19 but cried a ton and got convinced i was too much of a hon and stopped until 24.
Meanwhile it took like, what, a month maybe of sticking on hrt to just know 100% that I was gonna stick with it? And like 6-9 months to be mostly free of brainworms + passing decently?
god i was so stupid. I'll try and cope that it was the lack of good friends due to frequently moving.