Idk why I’m still so obsessed with transitioning I don’t have dysphoria don’t want to be a woman anymore and don’t want to transition anymore and yet I’m can’t stop taking e and every morning I’m still body checking and measuring myself. It’s basically just a habit at this point and I wish I knew how to stop it

>>40574535 (OP)
You are like me. My guess is that we have managed to find ways to cope and hide the dysphoria, even from ourselves.

>>40574587
* this is insanely relatable

>>40574535 (OP)
Glegle hands typed this

>>40574587
I don’t think I even ever had dysphoria tho I think I just got confused. But I’ve been thinking about this stuff for so long it’s like my brain can’t let go

>>40574535 (OP)
I've gone through the same thing, and even stopped taking e in hopes it'll stop the obsession. It did not.
Now I'm just obsessed with thinking about whether it was the right choice to stop

>>40574836
I feel like i need someone to come in and completely control my life, trying to get the motivation to stop hrt make more male friends and do more manly shit is impossible when I’m still obsessed with this stuff

>>40574726
But surely the thoughts affect your every day life? That’s not normal for someone cis

>>40574887
Same. I feel like any step I take to improve my life as a man is me giving up on this thing I don't even want anymore

>>40574928
They impact me greatly. Somedays either making me feel psychotic, and others feeling completely crippled by the fact that I am cis, both being completely inane

>>40574928
I think if I’m busy with something or other ppl the thoughts are pretty quiet but certainly every time I look in the mirror they’re there. It’s very much an obsession with appearance i really have no desire to live as a woman anymore but still obsess over my body which is preventing from stopping e and building up a normal male body

>>40574993
I know that feeling anon. I can’t see myself giving up e. I’ve woken up every day before 7am to take it for the last week and even when the breast growth starts I can’t see myself giving it up.

I don’t know what the future holds for us, but I would really recommend at doing some things for yourself. For example, I’m looking into some skincare products and hairstyles where I can still Boymode but be slowly transitioning.

>>40575091
nah I’ve been on this for 2y even tho I realized I wasn’t trans over a year ago. I just need to figure out how to stop e and stop thinking about this stuff for good

>>40576291
Ohh. You might wanna go on AA instead if you want to phase out e

>>40576291
How do you imagine your life as a man?

>>40576506
idk I don’t really think about the future much I just feel like a man and think I would be happier if I felt like I fit in with most people

Every poster in this thread has internalized transphobia and internalized homophobia. You have all these retarded copes about how you're somehow a "cis man" on HRT because you are ashamed about being trans and can't fully accept it. And also probably repressed sexuakity feeds into it, hence the internalized homophobia.

You could go of E detrans and repress for a decade and it would not stop the thoughts. Lifting, getting a gf, going to church, going on antispsychotics will not make it stop.

t. mtftmtf

>>40576590
yea I’m genuinely cis tho so not the same for me

>>40574535 (OP)
WHAT DID YOU DO TO GLEGLE'S EARS

>>40576640
glegle got surgery to look more human and is sad that they still don’t pass

>>40574535 (OP)

>>40576574
That's what I thought when I stopped e. Now I'm just a man that superficially fits in with most people, while still obsessing about what could've been if I didn't stop taking e.
I always feel two faced

>>40576964
I’m starting to think that’s normal for normies tho, not the obsession over trans stuff but rather the constant feeling that you’re sort of putting on an act. Like normie culture is never about being yourself its instead about self improvement and changing yourself to better fit in or succeed

>>40574726
you are just hurting your body at this point desu

>>40576997
That's definitely the case when interacting on a superficial level, but most people can drop the act when they need.
Pretty sure it's not normal to feel like one's whole self is an act that cannot be dropped

Maybe now that you are suitably feminized you don't give a shit anymore and can just live life lol

>>40577012
true
>>40577793
idk I don’t feel anyone has ever dropped the act with me but maybe that’s bc I’m socially retarded

>>40574535 (OP)
>I don’t have dysphoria don’t want to be a woman anymore and don’t want to transition anymore
Do any of the effects of estrogen give you reverse dysphoria?

>>40578573
Not OP but is reverse dysphoria a real thing ?

>>40578593
nta nor op but yes i and many other hrtfemboys get dysphoria from gyno

>>40578593
Dunno, but it's the simplest way of saying "I really don't like the effects of hrt"

>>40574836
>Now I'm just obsessed with thinking about whether it was the right choice to stop
literally me except it really feels like the wrong choice and i feel like i wasted and fucked up my entire life

>>40576291
idgi
stopping e is easy as fuck if you're not trans

>>40574535 (OP)
If you really know for sure then you can stop
But most people who stop seem to be complete failures who just are too dumb to be on E
T. complete failure too dumb to be on E who wishes it were different

>>40578573
not really I kinda look the same and like some effects like reduced sex drive
>>40579373
>>40579396
>stopping e is easy as fuck if you're not trans
not really bc having no hormones for a while feels like shit and there are some effects that just objectively feel nice like skin

>>40579428
>not really bc having no hormones for a while feels like shit
but you dont have to take it. you just throw it away and make it too hard to get more
then you get older and bitter at life hoping it gets better