Last post got kinda ignored so i'll repost it but more readable,

I don't know whether i'm trans or not, even as a kid i didn't like my masculine features, i'd cry when called handsome (i wanted to be pretty) and get upset about having arm hair and dreading getting facial hair in the future. I didn't think about it often but i did think about it.
Now i think about it 24/7, the negative feelings aren't as intense but they're there. Idk if they're dysphoria or not because it's like I'll feel kinda bad when i perceive my masculine traits but not like really shitty feeling. I get sad when i see i've grown taller or gotten more facial hair. I like it when people call me by she/her online

Am i really trans or just a confused male. Regardless i can't do anything for some years because i live with my parents and can't sneak anything into my room or whatever. I'm british too, sorry :(

bump

Doesn't matter. Do you want to be on estrogen rather than testosterone?

>>40578138
i don't knowww id rather be a girl for sure but its like only a slightly shitty feeling that lingers on me knowing i'm not, idk if it'll get worse knowing my time passed and i can't do anything even if i want.

when i live right now i just kinda feel bad all the time like a hole in my soul but its not a huge hole ig im dysphoric but not that dysphoric so im not sure whether its worth it throwing away my friends and family to make myself feel better about myself because id replace my identity problem with a no one loves me and ill never pass problem

>>40577836 (OP)
idk girl its up to you. try hrt if you can maybe. unless you think you can rep your whole life and not kys

>>40578220
>slightly shitty feeling
If you feel like this rn, do you think it'll get any better when you get older and masculinize further and farther away from any kind of androgyny?

Go to a gender therapist to help you figure it out

>>40578321
i hope so but right now if i was suddenly masculinised i'd be pretty sad, I guess my hope is that it's just a phase or something and i'm just confused and if i wait it out it'll be alright

>>40578335
I can't, i don't even know if they have those near me and i definitely couldn't sneak out for hours at a time to go to one without getting caught

>>40578397
>just a phase
You've mentioned crying about being called handsome when you were <10 years old in the other thread you made. That would make it a really long "phase", maybe even long enough to consider it being an immutable part of you

>>40578248
no matter what i'll have to rep for a while, until i could get my own place, or maybe if i end up in uni. i don't think getting kicked out is worth it until i could support myself. I'll see how it goes, if it gets better great if it gets worse then i know what ill have to do, I just wonder what i can do now, is there something i can do to suppress the effects of puberty without taking anything? Even if it's a minor effect it's worth trying

>>40578541
you're right, at every point in time in my life i've been like that, it's just it comes in waves, some weeks it'll be all i can think about and then others i'll hardly think about it, which is what makes me think im not really trans and it's all in my head, maybe im just delusional. I don't want to end up being old and regretting my life and the way i lived it though, if i wait my whole life for it to pass or subside and it never does then what did i live for