I've known being a boy wasn't for me when puberty started. I fear the psychic damage of looking in the mirror. practically my whole family are right wing religious nuts so transitioning isn't an option until i have my own place. I can't find a job anywhere and rent prices seem to get higher by the minute. I don't have good grades because of adhd. I don't believe i have a future in the US, claiming asylum in canada seems like my only hope but apparently there's too many people being processed in that system right now.

weird people on a random corner of the internet, is it over for me?

>>40579312 (OP)
diy hrt and boymode. Its very possible if your smart about it. Especially if you have friends who are willing to help you out.

>>40579799
yea this. get diy now and start. it wont be spottable for a few years if your smart and you get a headstart. im 3 years and still closeted to my grandparents.

also it sounds like ur just letting these things stack up and terrify you. one thing at a time. youll be ok

>>40579312 (OP)
just kill yourself now it never gets better