I wish I were trutrans or at least a manmoder instead of a cis non dysphoric schizo pretending to be a repper in his 30s

>>40583430 (OP)
fr i just wish someone all together

>>40583734
I feel like a failure for not being on HRT despite not being trans

At this age it doesn't even matter if you or I are trutrans. It's not like HRT will do anything, whether you are fake and have a mental illness that mimics GD or have actual GD the coping is all the same. There's no catharsis.

>>40584668
>It's not like HRT will do anything,
It could have desirable physical effects, and HRT objectively makes a person more feminine and less masculine

Same.

>>40584992
Not being on HRT feels like failure

>>40583430 (OP)
In the same situation, only a bit younger. I'm convinced it's just the "grass is always greener" fallacy, and every day not doing anything about it feels like letting go of something I don't even know I want