i just found out i booked my first hrt appointment in 2022. i don't remember that. i don't really remember anything that happened to me since the pandemic because of dissociation. i was going through my old emails i saw that was when i was going to start the first time. hrt has been all i wanted since i was 15.

i ended up starting at 21, nearly 22, instead of just after turning 19 like i would have back then.

now i'm a lateshit not a midshit. i'll never pass. i'll never be allowed to use a woman's bathroom because everyone will think i'm a man in a dress. i have a face the size of a mountain. what a funny way to waste my life

>>40586301 (OP)
literally me. like the age, the date, everything lol
yeah its so shit. *hugs* to you :(

well you better start doing something with yourself before you make yhis dame comment @ 30 and sui.

>>40586339
i'm transitioning now. but it feels so pointless, doesn't it? i hope it's not pointless. my friends tell me they think i'll be able to pass but i don't malefail irl. i just don't know what to believe

>>40586301 (OP)
let me tell you it doesn't change shit
> t. 18 lateshit

after 13 is lateshit let's be honest, if you transition after 16 you might as well be bruce jenner

>>40586381
i can see what changed between when i was 19 and 21. it was grotesque. even if 19 wasn't early enough it would have been 10000 times better for me

>>40586381
it does change. it feels subtle but when you compare side by side how you looked when you're 19 to when you're 21y you see many differences
anyway, theres the socialization part too. its almost 3 more years of depression, feeling like shit because of your body and your dysphoria, not being able to pursue relationships, feeling out of place with friends, etc