i hate being a stupid idiot tranny who started "socially transitioning" way before she should have, i hate that i was on a hondose for over a year, i hate that i waste every oppurtunity given to me, and i dont even know wtf is wrong with me. there was a time awhile ago where someone in my life could know about all the shitty things ive been through but now it's impossible. it's not like i can kill myself either. fml. do i just get into more serious self harming or what