the really weird thing about being on hormones is the sexuality switch, i feel totally addicted to men now, not like a weird fetish way but just like they are an overwhelming thing that consume me to the littlest atom. i feel swallowed, want to be swallowed, not literally vore is weird but like, spiritually and metaphorically. i can't stop thinking about men's bodies and men's arms and men's chests and men's hair and men's smells and it feels like i'm going a little insane in a way that i never got towards women even going through male puberty
if a guy i like gives me any interest i can't help but do exactly what he says with only a little protest and i used to be super individualistic and anti authority, before hormones i didn't listen to anyone and getting told to do anything by anyone would make me never do it
i never felt like this about women in my life
is this all normal? am i just losing my stupid hon mind

>>40593237 (OP)
I don't think there was any switch but it's more like you always had a tranny brain and without the right hormones to match the brain it just didn't do attraction right. now with hormones your brain is able to feel attraction now and it just so happens you liked boys all along.

>>40593237 (OP)
im less gay on estrogen than i was as a cis man

Eh, I always liked men but they always end up ghosting me so I just became cold and now I just play along.

>>40593237 (OP)
honscience.
hormones don't act as a "sexuality switch"
what's next, gonna talk about getting your period like all the other hons?
this is why ppl hate us
>noooo I was so individualistic before but now I'm just a hopeless little girl who needs a man to tell her what to do!! I can't help it, it's the whoremoans!!!
I honestly despise people like you

yeah i felt super detached from my sexuality before hormones and even while i was boymoding. this is basically how those dastard men have me now.

>>40593237 (OP)
i feel this way too. i've never felt anything like what i feel toward men that i have toward women. it's a lot more intense, it feels loving, and it's actually emotionally fulfilling. it can cause physical pain sometimes i'm so intensely into them. my attraction to women feels so empty and so abstract in comparison. i actually want to do things to and with men, which i've never really wanted to do with women. it's weird.
desu i don't blame hrt, i think i've just been on a trajectory towards being gayer since i was a kid. hrt was just along the way. i feel to some extent i'm finding my actual orientation. and no i'm not metaattracted, it's not about that at all.

>>40593237 (OP)
desu I don't think it's the hormones... generally i'd argue for the "closeted faggot troons" case. At that point you're already trans so what if you're also into men.
Especially for closetfags, social impact of coming out plays a big role in coming out of the closet, yet by being a tranny you can somewhat game your internal belief system into still being "straight"

>>40593374
i never said that

>>40593237 (OP)
It's different for everyone but definitely not unheard of, as the others wrote.
Anyways I hope you'll find a guy that you like and that likes you - you deserve happiness.

>>40594012
you literally did say that
>if a guy i like gives me any interest i can't help but do exactly what he says with only a little protest and i used to be super individualistic and anti authority
AGP asf

>>40593237 (OP)
Its just means that you are fake trans. Women are not turned on by men

>>40594795
nta, but I like the fake trans gay man on estrogen life - it's, less complicated

>>40593237 (OP)
AGP+MEF

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>>40594845
>>40594050
i dont feel like a man idk and the guy im kinda with(?) most often recently says im not at all masculine or malebrained and never have been (he knew me pre trans) and is surprised i stress about this stuff at all. i guess im just a little submissive and want to be validated and i was scared to be that vulnerable before i was out maybe idk
>>40594795
that doesnt seem really likely and sounds like incel logic