I feel so bad cuz I have to rep for like three more years minimum so I can’t grow my hair out and make it look nice, but I will be on hrt that whole time so it’s not like I WON’T be transitioning? but idk it’s really wonky and weird.
It’ll feel really awful though won’t it? I’ll be on hrt all those years but I won’t be allowed to do anything else to actually transition so i’ll literally just be a man with breasts :( So like what’s even the point? but that’s what I deserve for being malebrained i suppose :/
Aaaaaaaaaa i should never have decided to attend med school, being a doctor is NOT the career for trannies :(

>>40593432 (OP)
Why can't you grow your hair out?

>>40593444
Cuz everyone around me like parents and friends and everybody gives me a ton of shit every time I try or even mention wanting to. Plus also i’m in med school and the environment is super conservative and appearance-obsessed, especially during clinical rotations. you’re expected to look really “professional.” like, when’s the last time you saw a male doctor with long hair? i’m scared that if i don’t fit those standards (i.e. having short hair), I’ll get bad evals on my rotations, which could literally jeopardize my entire career :/
I really hate this career path desu

>>40593432 (OP)
>what’s even the point
you’ll be avoiding further masculinization during that time. i know it might not seem like it, but even if you have a bad starting point it can certainly get worse. your situation doesn’t seem ideal but at least you’re maintaining and actively improving in terms of fat distribution and the like

>>40593432 (OP)
that really sucks :(
are you sure u cant grow your hair out? is it a med school requirement or anxiety thing?

>>40593565
Oh ya i keep forgetting that’s the whole point. i think I focus too much on my end goal and the steps i wish I could be taking to get there that i end up forgetting what steps I’m already taking
.philosophical.
i am a little scared about eventually not being able to hide my breasts properly under scrubs but it’s not like I’m going to stop hrt so that’s a problem for future me
>>40593574
I mean i guess it’s a mix of both because I technically could grow my hair out, it’s not a written rule or anything. it’s just this unspoken norm, and you’re generally expected to present in a really conservative/professional way
Also my face is reaaaallyyyy long so I don’t think long hair would look good on me and i’m scared of looking gross :/
So ya mix of both

but what if I don’t end up transing even after med school, for the same reasons i can’t rn? Cuz residency will be even worse right? so what then?? That’s like another three or four years :0
i actually hate ts so much fmstl fr, Why why why did I decide to do medicine :(((

>>40594140
But wouldn’t it be really cool if i could transition during med school? :) I just dunno if that’s possible :(

Can a face be too long for long hair?
i can’t stop wasting time thinking about this but I really want long hair :/ Now!!