>both parents are narcissists
>dad lowkey sexually abused me, made me piss next to him at the toilet, would grab me on my hip despite me repeatedly telling him not to, would obsess over the possibility of me having phimosis (i didn't and gave him no indication i did)
>was abused at a daycare for a week. my mom noticed something was off about me after the first day but kept me in because she "had to work"
>parents never took no as an answer, they always had to be right
>dad will blatantly lie to my face just to get his way
>my mom will do the same except deluding herself into believing it first so she's even more convincing
>if i'm upset at anything they do i'm wrong
>if i'm feeling depressed i get yelled at if my mom is in a bad mood
>if i don't want to talk to them they will harass me until i talk to them or yell at them and start breaking shit

>my mom is neurotic, ocd, and refuses to accept how it affects me when she drags me into her delusional anxiety
>parents argued very often when i was young, but my mom wrote it off as "oh we're not arguing, just having a discussion :)"
>my mom will mumble something across the room at me then get upset when i don't immediately respond to her, but other times she will mumble something to herself
>my mom will yell at me if i don't respond to her immediately from two rooms over while i have headphones in
>my mom will not stop complaining how i never spend time with her
>my mom will endlessly pester me with random shit i don't want to hear or talk about
>after pestering me about something and i start to leave, she'll ask me if she was annoying me and that's why i'm leaving, i'll say yes, and she will get mad at me for saying yes
>mom won't stop pestering me about my hrt and saying a bunch of doomer things about it, gets upset when i tell her she's being super negative about it and i don't want to talk to her about it and denies that she's being negative

Anyways, any positive emotion I feel nowadays is extremely blunted and short lasting. Emptiness is eternal. Intrusive thoughts have taken over my brain. And I have no irl friends because I've thought everyone hated me from the age of 7 up until a few months ago so I never met people worth being around.

>>40595228
and even if i were to meet people i doubt i could manage to stay connected to the world enough to make friends or converse

i want to cry so bad but i can't. i get jealous whenever i hear one of my friends talk about how they're sad about something traumatic that happened to them.

>>40595217 (OP)
just move out

>>40595443
i've managed to push them away while living with them. i dont think its possible for me to move out. my mind is too fucked to hold a job and welfare doesn't pay enough to live on my own, plus it wouldn't help the isolation.

>>40595472
well don't complain about them being dicks, you're living in their house in what many would consider absolute luxury

>>40595483
a luxury would be having parents that cared more about me than about how i make them feel.

>>40595493
most people have to work hard every day for a roof over their heads and food in their bellies
you have no idea how fortunate you are

>>40595612
Bruh

>>40595217 (OP)
sounds like normal parents to me that’s just how life is for some of us

Grow up and move out, or wallow in your misery

>>40595217 (OP)
>>40595228
>>40595472
You just sound like a really spoiled kid.

>>40595648
transitioning is a total mindfuck for normies and it's pretty rude to troon out while living with your parents
the right thing to do is move out, cut contact, then transition

>>40595657
It's probably true that most trans still move out young. People like OP are incredibly entitled and just cry about living on easy mode, but they fuck up their own psychology in the process.

>>40595217 (OP)
You should let me come over so I can load them into a fatty cannon and shoot them to Ethiopia. Then you will be free Nona

>>40595671
most parents don't expect much, other than you'll become an independent stable adult with a job and you'll give them grandchildren

if you break that contract then don't be too surprised if they decide to break theirs

>>40595612
>>40595648

thank you for reminding me to never share this shit with normies <3 i was definitely spoiled as a kid but that's its own form of abuse because it stopped me from developing into a person

>>40595671
if it was easy mode i would be able to hold down a job

>>40595672
thank you

>>40595731
>i was definitely spoiled as a kid but that's its own form of abuse
this is a personal failing on your part
>if it was easy mode i would be able to hold down a job
literally just get a job and do it you retarded faggot

>>40595748
i hope you never have kids

>>40595781
well this is the fag board so seems unlikely

Dont you just love how supportive lgbt is

>>40595925
thank fuck

>>40595930
it truly is amazing

>>40595731
>Being a spoiled brat was abuse
This is why I can't take anyone seriously here. You sound like you may be a narcissist yourself, or possess many narcissistic traits. Narcissists completely lack the ability to empathize with other people and discount everyone else's experiences besides their own.

>>40595217 (OP)
same, it should end for me as well

>>40596065
I probably do have narcissistic traits. They're not pleasant to have. But it feels to me like you're discounting how my childhood was traumatic or harmful to me because you're under the impression that spoiling a child can't harm them, or it's somehow my own fault that I was affected negatively by how my parents raised me.

>>40595217 (OP)
Tips.fbi.gov

>>40596185
No seriously. Call up your state/local federal bureau office and report these scumbags. They will listen to you. Fuck state police. They are here to help you. They don't incriminate victims and they won't search you without a warrant if you're scared. Feds have more resources.

>>40596225
I'm not american and I doubt they'll harm anyone else the same way. I'm not super interested in revenge, so I'd rather not report them.

>>40596330
Interpol can still reach you. American feds have international reach. Here's a phone number for my state office: 803-551-4200. Use a textnow number in the US and tell them your story and they can reach out. Are you Canadian? If you made this thread, that appears to be a cry for help. I'm here to help you. You deserve so much better.

>>40596580
My parents don't affect me so much any more. I just want to be feel joy and empathy and all things good in this world on a deeper level than I currently do :c

>>40595217 (OP)
>>40595228
You deserved better. Every child deserves to feel safe and loved. None of it was your fault, you just got unlucky. I love you.

>>40597392
Thank you Emily

Parental neglect seems ubiquitous in the tranny community. Sorry ur going through this anon. I know what its like to have parents that are just unreasonably distant. Having to go back and teach urself every little thing they werent able to Is exhausting and goes on wayyy longer then people want to give you allowance for

>>40595612
someone with your intelligence should not have human rights. how gigafucked in the head do you have to be to think that the horror of having a job is worse than being abused daily for your entire life to the point that you might kill yourself

>>40597446
thank you anon. your words mean a lot

>>40596065
I mean it's not insane to think that two narcissists would produce another narcissist.

But really it does kind of sound like OP is the only narcissist in the story.