It’s really hard to date as a polyamorous transbian that needs all my partners to be monogamous towards me

>>40599868 (OP)
no doubt, how's that been working out?

:33 < i feel the same way! i wanna care for and make out with and value a lotta girls, but i experience raging jealousy...

:33 < i think it's beclawse i not-so-secretly think i'm bettfur than efurryone else... :<

:<< < i just doubt anyone else can be as equally meowltiple-people-loving as me!

polyfag genocide when?

>>40599868 (OP)
its very unlikely you are wonderful enough (or pure enough given the 98% likelihood its just gooner garbage for you); for you to ever have hope of 2 people loving you enough to themselves not need more than one; which they have to share

so many things have to align just right; and you yourself have to be capable of loving enough to fulfill 2 people and not have them hating eachother

but actually again because its probably just goonerism for you and anyone who would degrade themselves by joining your 'cule; thats all irrelevant

i was in love with 2 people at once; 3 even for a short while; but those feelings had nothing to do with lewd stuff and were mostly just a factor of my unusual circumstance; ultimately the two i actually wanted to be with; the one who was the love of my life led me on but could not actually love me; and the other only was able to allow me to pursue that because she herself was aromantic we discovered; and i cannot exist without romantic love; so i hopelessly threw myself at the other for the next 2 years while she melted my brain and traumatized me into madness

but still she said she loved me and i was so desperate i let myself believe that someday it could work

that led me to the edge of suicide; and finally with the last stretch to death having begun; my beyond-soulmate wife came into my life and saved me from that fate; and pulled me away from the one who hurt me so much; while also removing most of the burden that caring for me had become on my ex/bestie i lived with 2021-2024

i held some feelings for a couple of others from those years who are friends of mine that i care about alot- but over the past year of being married to my wife those feelings have died off because those girls barely talk to me anymore; they are straight anyways; but i miss hearing from them

at the end of the day i know no one will ever care as much as i do

my wife is all i need; and she is the only person in my life that ever loved me the same