Heya 5head. Ive made it to 27 without transing. No matter how worthless you are, life continues with or without you. With or without your balls. Ive been looking for clarity, and years now. im going to maybe kill myself. I have no family, no friends, and no prospects for a job or career. l have been a hermit for so long that my hair grew long. Its nice to speculate what woman i mightve been. Most the time i see a man that is one bad day away from jumping under a bus. Occasionally i see my own mother in my reflection and cry since she knows the monster i am. Im planning on maybe killing myself. Just looking for the motive first. Some people cant be saved. I cant be saved. I hope y'all get the happiness i cant find. I have gotten good on the guitar, unfortunately fire arms arent a thing in my place. I wouldve gone out like kurt. I cant afford to live, only hobble about and suffer. I hate my neighbours, they play loud music with heavy drums. I cant tell if its my pulse in my ears or a drumbeat. Im so tired. I am a monster. I want to be euthanized, not caged for another 17-21k rotations on this shitty pebble in space. I, truly have nothing.
come on, give trooning the old college try before you kill yourself won't you old chap?
>>40603541 (OP)>have been a hermityeah your pic says otherwise dumbass
>>40603602Its too late. Its too late. Its too late. Its too late. Its too late. It. Is. Too. Late. I dont want to do it, i will be miserable. I will be a monster. I will be caged. Its too hard. Its too expensive. I am too old and ugly. Ive seen burn victims with a more malleable mug than me.
>>40603651Ive been outside today, i havent been outisde in like a month. Lol
>>40603655If you're going to kill yourself literally what does it matter if you troon out first?
>>40603655You look fucking fine and people have trooned out way worse than you will
>>40603671Pride is fickle, i was to live as a man and raised to live as one. I am a man, anything outside of that is pretend. Its just pretend. Its pretend. Just wait till your 25 he said, now im 27 and i know this pain woll not go away.
>>40603541 (OP)your hair looks very damaged and dry, stop using shampoo entirely and use conditioner with no silicone in to wash your hair, also half of it is probably split you need to cut it
>>40603691you certainly complain like a fucking woman
>>40603700That is sexist, men can be fucking retarded too. Define woman. To me its something i will never be even as much as adjacent to. Its herculean. Its an epitaph of torment. Its fiction. Make belief. There is weakness with the flesh. I want to peel off my face.
>>40603726Your acting like someone going through fucking menopause just troon out already you were born for it
I was in the same position as you, I trooned out at 29 but I'm detrooning now a few years later because unless you want to live as a full time drag queen, you have money and you're autistic it's not enough
>>40603742OP looks feminine as shit in that picture
>>40603702Sure why the fuck not, I can not give a fucking worthless damn anyway.
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>>40603691Pride is silly. You'll be forgotten regardless, if you have no family and no friends, and you hate your male body, what is there to be proud of?
>>40603541 (OP)if you're going to kill yourself troon out anyway
what have you got to lose
>>40604001I am not some kindergarten ass trannabe like you. Dont pretend that somehow being a good little lady monster will fix shit. I smelled the coffee, and it turns out ive been drinking a pot of shit with more to serve to every next morning. Im so tired. My life is fucking over and has been over for 20 years. I just woke up and found out why that is.
>>40604082fine kill yourself then
I'm much happier having transitioned and my parents commented on it too.
Bro, that's what people exist for, to overcome difficulties every day, to look for something New, to commit suicide is the lot of weak-minded people, but if I can't convince you, then get a lot of loans and live your last days in luxury.
Peшaть тeбe.
>>40604111Im sure they laughed as much as my own, they just didnt have the guille to do it to your face. Not every Dexter Morgan looking ass fucker is a autistic savant with a 40k tech job. Bet the reason you're happy is because you can count like Rainman. Im happy for you. Please step on my tiny pathetic cock till it bleeds so i can call it a period in dellusion. all the other pig belly tranoids pet their taut gut and call it a baby.
>>40603750I looked more feminine and it doesn't matter. feminine men are far from actual women, just as masculine women are far from actual men
>>40604190yeah I do not have tranny IT money I'm literally on disability
if you're going to kill yourself kill yourself, I recommend you do a flip
>>40604335And what would that be other than heavy extemely leaky bowels. For some reason, i think i have a reason not to do anything. You are a real bastard arent you. Go back to your crib, diaper-tranny.
>>40604523Hey bestie, it helps with passing time. Did i ever tell you im fucking around because im bored and depressed as fuck. But seriously, glad youre able to be happy, my bank acc has less than 50cents and my stomach is eating itself. Wanna no whats really ? How that lena from kiev is a waste of time that gives people poor advice that cripples potential. She ruined my body because i followed her advice to the tee. Estradiol couldn't stop a man from being anything other than himself. Do you have a boyfriend? Do your parents love you unconditionally? I'll eat it up because i have no living family member that is in touch with me. As far as im concerned, i am the last of my bloodline. Some of what i said was attention baiting because i have schizotypal hallucinations that creep in the corner of my eye. Im unsure if im going through an episode right now. Is this the internet or is this a dellusion too? Im so scared i want to peel off my face. This is not my face.
>>40604681stop taking drugs, admit yourself to a hospital and get treatment
>>40603541 (OP)you are very pretty
i hope you will be alright
