The final entry of Melanie Anne Phillips' Diary posted on the web, May 2nd 1997.
8 years into her transition.
There is hope.
Keep going.
YGMI.

At over ten years into my transition, I often completely forget that I am trans, my family often forget that I am trans, and by now my only attachment to being trans is this shithole board lol.
Your life might get better, you may become happy.

But you're here forever.

>>40619390 (OP)
>I like who I am, I like what I am. I enjoy expressing my self.

this is really what it boils down to. we're all gonna make it.

>>40619441
For that feeling of inner peace, I think it will all be worth it in the end.
Every time I doom, I need to open this blog back up and remind myself there is a good ending and I can make it there.

>>40619390 (OP)
>we stare inward so intently that we no longer experience the world directly, but rather observe ourselves experiencing it
this is where ive been stuck as a 7 year hrt failed stealthoid. on paper ive made it, but i haven't let myself be a human being because im so scared of getting clocked

>>40619498
we will make it.

>>40619390 (OP)
I'm a 6'2 manmoder. I doubt that. Most likely I will detransition.

>>40619608
She was tall too. I don't recall her saying the exact height but in the blog she talks about being taller than her mother by a lot.
Here she is just before the start of her journey on HRT.

>>40619724
And her later closer to the point of reaching peace.

>>40619724
I have never malefailed after two years of HRT.

>>40619744
Well, there is reason to hope and to keep trying til 8.
You might not feel it in this moment, but I truly believe there is reason to hope.
I'm a honmoder/manmoder, I know how it be.
I hope it gets better for you soon <3

>>40619820
It will get better when I become 5'6.

>>40619836
woag that's crazy. shortening surgery must have gotten insanely good since the last time I checked

>>40619441
I’ll be 4 years in tomorrow. I briefly stopped boymoding but now I’m back at it in pretty much all aspects of my life. nothing about me is female or feminine at all. I always hoped I’d wind up in your position but I don’t think I’ll ever even be able to girlmode.

>>40619441
i had that for a while but politics has kicked me back here and reminded me how miserable life really is and how much people hate us

>>40622057
7 years here yaaaay

Idk about you but I pass visually but I'm still a failure lol