>>40700416 (OP)For me it's hard to describe how I feel about myself. In one hand I get the feeling sad about not being a true woman, and how I will never have children, but at the same time it's hard for me to use words like "male" or "boy".
I don't feel like there's anything male about me in my mind nor spirit, obviously I cannot deny my body but... whatever. I decided to transition because I saw no future for myself as a man, literally, just fog and a tomb with a name I had never used for myself. I could not understand what manhood was expected from me.
Though I frequently feel like I am just a faggot who faggoted too much I'd never tell cis people "I am not a woman" because they are not educated enough about the topic, even if it's not 100% the truth I will affirm my and other trans women's womanhood to keep us safe, cause cishet society cannot comprehend anything else.