i hate being trans
being trans makes me want to kill myself all the time. i feel so uncomfortable just existing. i tried to be a boy for so long and it made me try to kill myself. now that i pass as a girl its not as bad as it was but i will never be cis. i will never know what its like to be a 'real' woman. i will never know what its like to move through the world as a girl. i cant wear what other girls wear because even though my face passes im disgusted by my body. i fucking hate having a dick. i hate having sex because i hate having a dick. i hate talking to anyone because its a constant reminder of my social inadequacy. i feel violent and trapped all the time i wish i was born a girl so fucking bad even if i would still be fucked socially at least it wouldnt be as bad as this. why would anybody want to be trans its hell. theres nothing i can do about my disgusting body except hate it and hate myself for wanting something different.