Thread 41384074

>be closeted male-attracted tranny
>get girlfriend and marry her anyways
>wife had a positive pregnancy test last night
>am going to be a father
how bad of a person am i?

oomfie

>>41384074 (OP)
Bro
You needed to get off that train like, 4 stops ago

It will hurt but you need to leave now for everyones sake
t. Same situation as you except I got raped when I tried to leave and she got pregnant

>>41384158
>Same situation as you except I got raped when I tried to leave and she got pregnant
Holy shit anon that's fucked

>>41384146
>>41384158
i'm very happy with my situation and i love her deeply, even though sex is a struggle. i've also always wanted to be a parent, even though i'll never be a mother, being a father is good enough for me.

>>41384181
Yeah the real reason I left was because of abuse, the trans stuff was just incedental. And its hard because ive always wanted a baby but now its with my abuser and I cant raise him without subjecting myself to further harm, but to the outsiders it looks like I just trooned out to avoid taking respinsibility

>>41384214
woah i also had an abusive cisf gf that raped me before i trooned out

>>41384196
That works out then. Just gotta cope indefinitely then! Which is ok
>>41384214
That's seriously fucked anon. People never see the whole picture

>>41384074 (OP)
If you never transition then you are ok tbdesu. If you EVER decide to transition though... You are the worst fucking type of tranny

>>41384074 (OP)
So you're a repper? No way you wouldn't be impotent if you were on hrt. Repper life strikes again

>>41384158
sorry that happened, pretty fucked. :(
>>41384241
>>41384244
i'm an extremely unwell individual generally, so i already cope pretty much constantly. i'll never troon out, i couldn't do that to my wife and coming child.
>>41384273
yes, i am. i wouldn't hide something like that from my wife anyways. though, as long as they just remain as thoughts, they can be my little secret.

>>41384074 (OP)
I followed through and had the child and the dysphoria got way worse.
>>41384244
/pol/ repper

>>41384074 (OP)
literally how

>>41384575
how what?

>>41384610
how and why did you ever get yourself into this situation?

>>41384660
because i don't want to be a homo tranny (i love homo trannies, it's just not for me). i just want to be a normal guy with a normal wife, normal kids and a normal life. thus far i'm very happy with how i've gone, my wife is very smart, pretty and kind, and i'm overjoyed that she'll be having my children with me. if you're asking me how to get a girlfriend, i can't really help with that, it kinda just happened.

You only get to live one time. Is this really how you want to spend it? I promise it's never too late.
The only thing that changes with time is it gets harder to dig yourself out of the hole. Don't ignore your wants because they never really go away, you just waste your life for nothing at all

>>41384074 (OP)
Tell her to get an abortion cause your about to ruin two peoples lives. Why tf would you do this?

>>41384953
i'm very happy, this is the life that i want.
>>41385027
because i love her, and i've always wanted children, i'd have had children regardless of whether i trooned out or not. i'll literally never give birth or be a mother, but being a father is good enough for me. i'm content with my decisions.

>>41385102
I want you to know your a selfish piece of shit and you clearly don't love her. If you did you would have told her. When that kid finds out there going to hate you.

>>41385102
Cope.

>>41385182
>>41385191
why are you same-fagging?

>>41385182
also, it's 'you're,' not "your" and 'they're,' not "there". please don't be esl in my thread.

>>41385225
I need to pray this is bait for my own mental health. I feel so bad for that kid.

>>41384911
That doesn't sound like a recipe for long term happiness to me but oh well I guess it's your life, or so I would say if there weren't two other people getting dragged in. Even if you're a relatively functional repper without crippling dysphoria I hope she at least has some idea that you aren't just a normal straight guy and isn't being totally lied to.
I'm just confused as to how getting married to someone you aren't even attracted to can "just happen," was it an arranged marriage or something?

>>41385241
Would be funny if it was repper for repper

>>41385241
she knows that i used to crossdress and have had sex with men, though i don't actually think that her knowing that really changes anything about our relationship. i'm also generally pretty functional, my dysphoria has actually gotten way easier to deal with now that i'm in a happy, healthy relationship. as for how we got together, we were friends, she asked me out at first, and then i just went with it. even though i'm not really attracted to women, i still enjoy making her feel good, and my sex drive isn't very high regardless so not getting to fuck guys isn't particularly upsetting to me. i know it might be hard to understand, but this relationship has been a hundred times more fulfilling to me than the gay relationships that i've been in.

>>41385267
Imo her knowing that actually does make the situation a little better since she knows what she got herself into. You don't really sound like you have zero attraction to her either, are you sure you're not somewhat bisexual?
I hope it lasts for you somehow, and if it doesn't I hope you break before your kid can remember it.

>>41385305
i don't know, i generally find vagina to be deeply unattractive, but i'll still eat her out because i love her and my desire to make her feel good far outweighs any kind of disgust response. also, i'm extremely confident that i won't break, it's really only gotten easier as i've aged, and at this point it's honestly barely noticeable, whereas when i was a teenager it would make me break down and cry. i can honestly say that this relationship has been the happiest period of my life by far.

>>41385267
Wait that changes a lot, my bad your good

>>41384074 (OP)
You do not need to leave, you just have to start transitioning. You can either do it in secret or with your wifes knowledge.
You can be a mother.
Long term you will like havong a child.

>>41384074 (OP)
The child doesn't deserve a repper for a dad.

>>41384074 (OP)
idg people like you, as a long-term repper myself relationships and sex were just completely out of the question for me

Look into black market passports op!
You STUPID bitch!

The sooner you say something, the better. If you end up having to transition will that be easier to do before the child starts having permanent memories, or in 10 years when you have to explain why daddy is becoming mommy 2? When you inevitably have relationship problems (because everyone does), will you want to leave and go suck dicks? Will you resent her for essentially preventing your transition? If another person is the bedrock of your identity then you’re setting yourself up for failure when the chips are down. Your wife should have a say in this, the sense of betrayal does not get better - trust me. You have a nice thing now but it’s built on an extremely unstable foundation.

You're doing god's work, the troon jeans must be propagated

>>41384357
Are you calling me a /pol/ repper? Cause I trooned out pretty young lol

>>41384074 (OP)
If you were a real tranny you would've been infertile by month 1 shithead. Stop lying.

>>41384074 (OP)
if this is fr then yea you're a bad person. i have no sympathy for this kinda stuff how do you get into a relationship with someone like this and just lie to them about who you are. Don't you love her? This is the kinda repping that's actually immoral. You might destroy your family because you were too scared to be honest.

>>41387483
Everyone is a little dishonest and this is no different. If your wife asks if she's prettier than jennifer lawrence, the answer is YES. If your wife asks you if you if you've ever thought about taking estrogen and bottoming for men, the answer is NO. Lies keep the world turning.