Thread 41460554

i've been repressing for a few years now it seems after having an honest talk with a friend and l honestly fucking hate this feeling, I hope this feeling goes away eventually

I repped for decades

It gets worse as you age, just transition and try to be happy. Give yourself a chance!!!

No cis people have this battle anon…

>>41460561
the issue if its truly something or I want or was it cause of porn rotted my mind, but I've talked to one of my trans friend that I'm close with and after having that conversation its feel like i should stop repressing but I psych myself and not to do anything about it and let the feeling pass since its a passing and going type of thing, Its stressful.

>>41460667
nigga just take the pills it becomes obvious pretty quick

>>41460667
if the porn brainrot cope is true for anyone it wont be for you, it'll be for someone who is remorseless about it

it's bullshit reppers made up to keep repping anyway

>>41460679
>just take the pills it becomes obvious very quick

anon you do realize, how difficult that would be, I think you wouldn't cause my life rn is kind of unstable so going for a goal such as that feels very unattainable right now, though if I come to a conclusion then yeah those pills will help with whatever this feeling is.

>>41460710
that's scary to think about honestly anon

>>41460679
Why are you pushing drugs on people you don't even know?

>>41460667
A few thought experiments here OP.

>how long have you felt this way? Did you ever want to be a girl before puberty/porn?
>even if it was porn damage, honestly if you have dysphoria it just gets worse and worse as you age until you die or troon out.
Find me the 60yo repper. Don’t john50 yourself.
Read this article:
https://www.avitale.com/essays-details/?name=the-gender-variant-phenomenon--a-developmental-review-5

>>41460727
the pills will reach the conclusion one way or the other
everyone gets one type of dysphoria, if you weren't meant to feel good in your own skin with titties you'll know about it as soon as you get them

>>41460727
OP, I am the first anon trying to talk to you as a former repper who is telling you it gets worse.

How would you describe your feelings now and what is your age? I got to 29 before my life on every level pretty much fell apart because of this shit

>>41460738
because john, 40s, 50s and 60s often become subhuman schizo politicians
john, 30 (you), is a subhuman schizo /pol/tard, as a great example of how that pipeline works
repression is the source of trans mental illness, transition is the cure, all studies show this

destroying chuds like you by reforming you into something pure is the ultimate form of rehabilitation we have as a society
every 4chan transbian with a gf is a huge success for society

>>41460768
Who are you calling a pol/tard? I am the person claiming to be a former repper and I didn’t make the posts you are replying to. I also no longer rep and am actually trying to help OP

>>41460756
I am 24 almost 25, I feel scared for myself though I acknowledge the struggle of what trans people go through as well as of what happening in today society, but thinking about myself being trans with how my life is and other things its very scary due to multiple things, it's why Id I always thought I was genderfluid but again my mind defaults to that nagging problem, Is this truly what I feel or is it something thats rooted in fetish and this is what truly vexes me.

>>41460740
I never really thought of it, me being autistic life was odd for me so thinking of stuff like this never came to mind because I never really thought about this these things but i think in my teen years I've always wanted to feminine but I truly don't know if this is because of porn damage because of context i was exposed to porn at a really young age, all of this is just heavy now truly thinking about it.

>>41460802
I feel for you OP and I’m sorry you are going through this…

It is scary unfortunately. I had a lot of similar feelings.
Honestly I can tell you that going further down the “wrong” path that brings you pain just gets worse and worse over time and whatever copes you have now will start to fail and you will need more and more. I coped alot with drugs. Then I had a baby and wasn’t doing that at all and it hit me very harshly that I got dysphoria because my daughter looked like me but is a cis girl. That’s a terrible realization to have and I don’t want that for you.

I love my daughter and she’s my world but I had to be honest with myself and my thoughts for her sake as well, I know that would only get worse as we both got older.

Putting aside all the modern bullshit and circumstances. If there was a button in front of you that if you hit it would make you into a cis girl and nothing else in your life would change, everyone just knew you had always been you etc., would you hit it?

A great video experience that was actually relateable for me was the last like 30ish min of the ceicocat youtube video inside Mari: the incel to trans pipeline where she talks about her experience. It might be meaningful for you too I’m not sure.

>>41460815
I’ll be real, cis guys wouldn’t get sad thinking or talking about this they literally never have these thoughts…

Like do you have bros OP? I promise unless they have dysphoria none of this talk would hit them the same. I understand your feelings and hope you will be ok <3

You are still young just act as quickly as you can and actually start LIVIJG your life as yourself. You don’t want to wake up with things half way over and you never having been real…

>>41460826

>Honestly I can tell you that going further down
the “wrong” path

the more I think about this the more it is just scary, like is this really something that is truly me or is this just copium because in this world there is only really black and white (though my therapist says I shouldn't have this type of mentality) I still feel like I am more angry and scared.

>Putting aside all the modern bullshit and circumstances. If there was a button in front of you that if you hit it would make you into a cis girl and nothing else in your life would change, everyone just knew you had always been you etc., would you hit it?

I am fearful that If i do and It's not something that is truly me that I have become the very think fear the most, I am confused, scared and afraid.

>A great video experience that was actually relateable for me was the last like 30ish min of the ceicocat youtube video inside Mari: the incel to trans pipeline where she talks about her experience.

I will probably look into it, though ive heard negatives about the incel to trans pipeline though, Its more confusing as a gay man feeling these things, again as I as before everything is just scary.

>>41460768
>john
>destroying chuds like you
>by reforming you into something pure
>is the ultimate form of rehabilitation we have as a society
I bet if you laid off the drugs, you wouldn't do so much slop talk. You probably never read a "study" that made you think pilling up was a bad habit, but alas, it is.

>>41460869
I have never done a hard drug in my life
kys degenerate

>>41460856
Got you.

Take your time. You don’t need to know immediately and you should really examine the fear and do some self discovery. I would try to talk to trans women if you can about your feelings. This place is OK but pretty hostile. I had success using VRChat when I was trying to work through my shit.

Big difference in going through this as a gay guy. That wasn’t my experience. I lived as a straight guy for a long time. Honestly, without some childhood sexual trauma I would probably have been bi, and my personality is more bi, I just can’t be sexually comfortable around men. Thankfully there are plenty of cis women and tgirls.

I do wish you luck OP and i promise if it does or doesn’t turn out you are trans life will go on. I lost a decent amount coming out (mostly my relationship which was already abusive and on the rocks, she also knew from the first few months we were together I had dysphoria and she was bi) but I’ve had a ton of acceptance from my family and friends I didn’t think I would have so it’s not the end of the world and things will get better. You will either realize this is or isn’t you and act accordingly.

Just don’t rep forever <3 you will drive yourself crazy lol

>>41460875
You just creep online giving unqualified medical advice to people who don't want to take your pills?

>>41460942
"medical advice" and it's "you should probably take hormones if you're trans"
lmao, you're a fucking joke
kill all sissy reppers
ideally, kill them with a transformation into something better

>>41460973
Not really. You clearly need to cope better. Less drugs and hateful fantasies for starters.

>>41461030
you are in front of me
you exist
there's no fantasy about who you are as a person, because you're cut from the same cloth as every other idiot who comes onto this board to "troll" thinking they're some great culture warrior when everyone knows the reality is you're just ashamed of the porn you keep jerking off to
I hate you for the content of your character and nothing more
I want you to change your character or perish
this is all very strongly based in reality

it's actually funny meeting your type IRL too, because you're such spineless girly faggots and you would genuinely be better off as girls, masculinity is nowhere in you

>>41460895
thank you

>live normal life
>talk to a tranny
>holy shit I must become a depressed suicidal tranny too
why are you like this?

>>41463042
either you're being some brain dead mongoloid that can't read the conversation or this is the bait i've been hearing about on this board for a while.

>>41460856
Not OP or this anon but basically on this same wave. Been repping for years and share basically every concern in this thread (porn addiction, not passing) and yeah how fucking scary it is. I used to be transgender as in I knew I needed to transition but now my spiritual core has become never transitioning.

>>41460895
I talked to a few trans women but they all ran out of their battery and left me alone after a few conversations lmao, I wanted that endless validation but after some time I think they all decided I was too fucked up and ignored me.

>>41461062
You don't know anything about me nor the person you're pushing drugs on as part of your own frustrated sexual obsession. stfu.

>>41465467
OP here, It's just with friends i've talked they know my flaws and if i talked about with them, they say thats its probably the porn addiction and that I was just an AGP if i continue down the route, family wouldn't accept me cause their religious, online friends would but feels lonely talking about it now that i look at it, like I wanna cry but my medication prevents me but for good reasons not gonna out my mental bs on this site but i finding out more and more that it feels lonely not talking about it without judgement or second guessing myself.

>>41465750
Apologies if this is word salad kind of stressed out rn

>>41464022
>mongoloid because I didnt read your troon babble
good luck figuring out your gender "alice"

>>41460554 (OP)
No it only gets worse, you have to troon

>>41465750
That's scarier that your friends are saying that. I have a few that if I told them about the porn addiction they'd probably say I shouldn't do it instead I've just blanketed it as feelings I want to pursue but not sure if it comes from a good place and they say you should at least try.

My only note for you OP is that if you realize these feelings go back to before/around puberty, you need to pursue them. I myself was always obsessed with the imaginary so I can't say I'm trans but if you have remember a thought of wanting to be a girl before the age of 15 pursue that shit now.

>>41466304
look at this cause i've answered this kind of question before
>>41460815