Thread 41505702

Halloween edition
>QOTT: What are you doing for Halloween? What costume will you wear?

Previous thread: >>41467682

drinking my feelings away probs

or hanging out with my moid friends

What about for Halloween dressing as a feminine man who doesn't take hrt, and then just never taking the costume off?

>>41505684
I will not fall for pink-pill lies
If I actually need to transition, I will
But untill that day comes, I rep

>>41505702 (OP)
prob nothing, never really celebrated it
>>41505684
i will be the one who doesn't regret it surely
who's out there surveying non-transition regret rates? how would we even know
>>41505710
kill yourself

>>41505702 (OP)
I'm multiple years past having anyone to celebrate Halloween with, or even anywhere to go where I would feel welcome or enjoy myself
Starting to wonder if I'll ever make a friend again or if I'm in the early stages of "insane 75 year old hermit"moding

I have hair like this

>>41505702 (OP)
>What are you doing for Halloween?
Rotting inside and watching horror movies if I'm not too depressed for it.

>>41505802
lucky, i wish i was sad and depressed..

>>41505702 (OP)
I haven't dressed up since I was 11
I've since had passing fantasies of being a girl for my costume before, though

i want to be hot halloween anime girl

>>41505743
same here friend
starting 40 years early
i hope you find peace

I finally started watching that Incel to trans pipeline Inside Mari video essay. Big mistake.

>>41505702 (OP)
>>QOTT: What are you doing for Halloween? What costume will you wear?
Only kids do Halloween where I live so I'll be sitting inside like a grumpy old man ignoring the kids knocking on my door.

>>41505710
yeah that's one of my fears having a complete breakdown

I want to be a cute anime girl and cuddle with my cute friend

I'm going to Japan soon and my one hope is that I can work up the confidence to go into a cuddle cafe. I always feel like I'm just a nuisance though, no one would want to give me a hug even if I paid them. They would hate it the entire time and would be counting the seconds til it was over. I don't want to inflict that on someone else so probably I'll just spend the whole trip miserable and lonely as always.

>>41507253
if you shower beforehand and don't get handsy you're probably already better than the majority of their regulars, so go for it

buying a VR helmet was the best decision I've ever made, it feeds my delusions more than anything real ever could, I can actually be an anime girl, I can look in a mirror and see an anime girl, I can dress however I want, it's heaven

>>41507277
Sounds comfy. I've considered getting one but I'd need my own place before I get do it while getting fully immersed

>>41507277
I tried it but it was meh for me
doesn't feel real at all

>>41507253
Who cares? You're using them regardless, drop the pretense of consideration because it's just hypocritical

hrt repper gf to enjoy malebrained hobbies in public but then cuddle and crossdress in private

I just nutted to some peak furry cuck porn

i want to be hot anime girl with glasses i aint asking much God

>>41507643
SPOOKY SCARY SLEEPY WOMEN! MWHAHAHAHAHAH

>>41507688
I want this but with wilder sex hair

>want to start hrt again because balding, facial hair growth rate and thickening, male BO, etc
>don't want to be a crybaby crashing out every time something triggers dysphoria and hate entertaining trans shit even as an eternal manmoder
fuck

BECOME

Internet tranny culture is kind of neat I like to observe it from a distance

>Got drunk, flushed my pills in a rage b/c I'll never pass and cancelled next bloodwork appointment
>Too ashamed to ask for an early fill or make a new appointment (I'd be waiting months for one anyway)
Back to repping, I guess
>>41507253
If it makes you feel any better, the employees probably already hate their customers, much like sex workers and strippers

>>41508054
Why would that make me feel better

>>41508073
You shouldn't care and I mean really you don't. It's a transaction. You'll always be a creep to them but to you they're just a hugger too right

i wish I was trans and actually dysphporic

>>41508073
Idk, less shame?
I used to work retail so I know a lot about having to deal with people you hate, putting on a smile and giving obsequious apologies when they yell at you that you're personally trying to rip them off because inflation happened and the price increased
Outside maybe some snobby coffee shops, nobody in retail is there for love of the product/service
It's a job, purely transactional
Just don't nag them or make them feel any more weird than they already do, let them do their job and you're already in the top 25% of customers, maybe even top 10% idk the clientele "cuddle cafes" attract
Chances are if the employees hated the job with all their being they would find another unless it paid really well, so you might as well give them hours by patronizing the place

can't tell if i'm balding on hrt or if my hairline is just naturally this high

>be dysphoric
>take 2 tramadols
>dysphoria goes away

repping is so fucking easy

I should've repped harder.
The tranny life isn't easier.
Heed my warning, fight back the brainworms.

>>41508099
it's all smiles when you're not? I wish I was just a gooning sissy or something

>listening to The Iceman Cometh
the quintessential repper play

>>41508274
idk what you mean but i feel miserable

>>41508367
why? if you don't have dysphoria then there's no reason to be

i wish i never saw warmfreshpaint transbian sexo 10 years ago

my mental health would be so much better

>>41508385
I’m envious of those who have what I never can
I’m a fake human with no identity and the trans people I met are all better than me for the fact they self actualise
They get to be cute or at least are allowed to do anything
But I’m just a depressed subhuman

Just do 3 pullups, 10 push ups, and 60s planks every time you have a troon thought. This will encourage rewiring the brain in a masculine way.

>>41507222
You know you can express yourself femininely in public without being obscene.

manifesTTTT

>>41508701
That's nothing lmao

>>41508701
Literally the only thing that motivated me to exercise was to build a more feminine figure with lower body work.

manmoder pops in to say hello to a dryrepper

>>41505702 (OP)
i will do nothing , my repper life dont deserve any type of joy

>>41505702 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

femininity has nothing to do with hrt

>>41509720
yes. you aren't living your life until you have come tits spread a mile apart on your ribcage
and don't forget female pattern hair loss from stress

>>41508582
sounds like you have no self-identity.
You might actually be possessed by an evil spirit.

>>41509163
the only girls who are actually like this are out of shape and chubby. and probably ugly.

I wish I was a cute twinkhon transbian

do SSRIs work for dysphoria? I don't want to be more of a zombie though

>>41509862
Yes
Somehow this seems true
I hate myself for it
Everything I do is performative
I’m a fake tranny a fake human a fake person
I just leech off others and mirror their personalities
I’m dead and unmotivated

>>41509891
Same
But I’m not dydphoric and too old to be trans

>>41509163
>broke loser
>vtuber with big tits
Life on easy mode, bullshit

>>41509891
reppers wish to be twinkhons,
twinkhons wish to be passoids,
passoids wish to be gigapassoids,
gigapassoids wish to be cis.

there's always something greater to want, and even if you get to the top, actual perfection is always out of reach, leaving you with a void that can never be filled.
-buddha or something idk

>>41510545
Thats why this is a mental illness

stopping hrt gave me dandruff and eczema :( apparently it's common with hormonal changes and stress

>>41505710
the problem is that you're already wearing another costume underneath it and the costume is about to hit twinkdeath

>>41509374
half the people itt are 'hrt reppers'

>>41509887
I will simply be the hot variant bc hot anime girl
>>41510530
yes

>>41510545
Fuck that I want to be hot anime girl

I'll never transition, and its not because I wont pass, its because I'll have 0 support. My left leaning friends only want to know me when I have drugs. My conservative friends are great guys to hang out with and always have my back - except on transitioning where they are horrid and cruel. I know people say 'do it for yourself' but whats the use when it ostracizes everyone you know? Maybe I'm not trans enough if these are issues that hinder me , but if so why does this question loom over my head so often, why am I so jealous of trans women why do I enjoy feminine things and want to take on a more feminine role in life?

>>41511540
that's the way literally everything works though.

the irony is i look a lot like my mom but my mom is ugly so it doesnt matter. i probably dont even have dysphoria, i just dont wanna be ugly.

>>41513278
same, though I always thought my mom was closeted trans (grew up with like six brothers, had short hair, came out as lesbian later in life)
I do have a brow ridge but otherwise I'd say I look identical in my face. In my hometown people would always stop and ask me if I'm related

>>41505702 (OP)
If i can't transition I've decided to just live a diminished male existence, no ambitions, no love, no intimacy, no pornography, nothing. Just a hollow life that feels like nothing. Sad that I don't get to dress up on halloween.

Being male sucks it's unreal

i wish being an androgynous femboy twink was something you could actually be and not just a fantasy in chinese cartoons

>>41509163
definitely an adult content creator

>>41509163
>big tits
>female
these instantly make her mog me no matter what i do with my life

want to kill myself but i don't want to inconvenience my family with the trauma. i can't do a single thing i actually want, not even die.

>>41514716
same
it sucks

>>41514427
Yeah and I wish HRT that changed your skeletal structure was real and not the product of chinese independent comic books and canadian erotic electronic games.

I wish hrt turns me into ahot anime girl

i think life gets easier when you realise that you cant really do anything to change yourself. like when i see a pretty tranny and i feel envy and the urge to troon out to try my luck. i can just remind myself that they basically looked like that pre hrt and its all style and minor alterations. just as when i see someone who is some computer programmer and i get jealous and want to learn that so i can have a 6 figure job like them, i remind myself they were always interested in and good at that and im not going to just magically change and be able to learn things and be useful. i am what i am. and that is unfortunately just a failure with no positive traits of any kind. the sooner you accept what you are and how much on rails your life is the better you will feel. the torture of thinking things could be different will stop.

>>41514945
i am on the rails to be reborn as a hot anime girl with BIG tits next life

>>41514945
>the sooner you accept what you are and how much on rails your life is the better you will feel. the torture of thinking things could be different will stop.
What's the point? Feels like the same level of misery

>>41514945
>i think life gets easier when you realise that you cant really do anything to change yourself.
No that's when the existential despair creeps in.

>>41514945
>just as when i see someone who is some computer programmer and i get jealous and want to learn that so i can have a 6 figure job like them
i fucking wish, i make 60k (70k including stock options which are probably going to become worthless pretty soon)
i was making 80k during covid but that bubble popped and wages have been in free fall

how many here believe in reincarnation? do you think it’ll be better in the next life?

>>41515634
I do but I don't think it functions on karma of any kind so your ass is basically playing russian roulette whenever you decide to incarnate out of the astral. Not doing that again any time soon I tell you what.

>>41515634
I believe it's random

>>41515607
i make over 200k and i am bitter over being old and male instead of young and female

>>41515634
i think if reincarnation exists it explains why trannies exist. in my case at least, i believe i was given a male body and male mind that ironically hates it's own maleness is because its a karmic punishment for horrible deeds done to women in a past life. i can only hope it will be better in the next life

should i kill myself?

>>41516717
no but i probably should

im so unhappy

The faggots are right. I'm feeling very lgb without t. Homosexuality is normal, it is in nature. "Transsexualism" in nature is present in species, but in humans it only develops artificially. Transsexualism, before being what it is today, was a source of artistic representation within homosexuality or a cultural phenomenon - it was never an ideology that propagates pseudoscience. And it remains merely a form of artistic expression. And honestly, the number of healthy people who are taking this representation seriously is 0. Those who are most satisfied with what they have become have various mental disorders, the rest... It's hell to be in these people's shoes. Most faggots are terrible people, just like most people in general. But it's a fact that putting everyone who deviates from cis heterosexuality into the same group basically destroys any progress they've made. And for those on the right wing, this is perfect.

>>41516833
lmao if this were true you wouldn't be here and you know it
if dysphoria was an ideology we could just deboonk ourselves with facts and logic instead of living with this shit

>>41515634
I just don't see how reincarnation makes any sense with how much the amount of life fluctuates
If I die as a cool dinosaur during the Permian mass extinction, is my soul just gonna be stuck waiting in a line with an innumerable amount of other souls for our time to finally reincarnate once the world's population recovers?

I want to be a hot anime girl with a working hot anime womb and having hot anime babymaking sex

>>41513006
>do it for yourself
nah bb do it 4 the plot do you want perma-ennui

>>41517069
think of it this way, the you of today is a reincarnation of the you of yesterday, who is dead and gone forever as some small part of you has fundamentally changed since 'you' were 'them'. Death, the recycling of disembodied consciousness, and rebirth are just a meta cycle version of this process. its like comparing the next generation to the next speciation.

I want to be a cute anime boy

I don't consent to any of my posts here being posted on reddit.

>>41516813
nah you shouldn't, it's me who should

I dated a t4t tranny once but she was obsessed with impregnation and fathering a child before she got too old
What a black pill

>>41518015
This is why all women over 30 are crazy they realise they suddenly realise they are on a timer and gets super neurotic and sabotage everything.

>guess I'll cave in and buy hrt
>UK is such a police state you need all the information of a recipient of BTC before paying
>obviously no one outside the UK would give this out
wow how do trans people even exist here

please post my posts on reddit
the world needs to know that im a fat ugly retard

Trannyge are comfy I've been playing a lot of them lately. It's comforting to know there are so many people as depressed and lonely as I am.

HOW LONG DO I HAVE TO SUFFER UNTIL I BECOME ANIME GIRL

Why do I even want to be a woman? It makes no sense, and I really shouldn't care to begin with

even reddit is getting in on the eternal "is it hrtrepping or manmoding" debate, good work team
>i don't understand how these people can spend every waking moment of their lives at war with themselves
it's not that bad and if it was i would've transitioned

>>41518478
I've been researching egregores and near death experiences and believe it may be possible to create a "target" shortly after death where one could theoretically manifest themselves as an anime girl. The main problem is the consistency of beliefs required to create realness from aether, which may require a pseudo-bible of hard rules to define the being of a hot anime girl. More frustratingly, it's possible hot anime girl world may require a consensus reality shift meaning many people would have to believe in this version of the afterlife to manifest it.

Stop watching porn you fucking weird degenerate freaks

>>41516833
>its natural so its good

rape is natural and practiced by many animal species, is that good also?

the one good thing about humans is that we are able to transcend nature somewhat.

I really don't care about passing
I would be ok just being a hrt femboy
But if someone just called me woman
Well you know

But everything turns out in such a way that I don't have to do anything I don't have to want anything I just continue living the life of a lonely incel
Never ending repression

>>41519579
manmoding is not real, i am tired of a few retards here pretending it is just to not feel that they are reppers, most 'manmoders' are either hons hoping to pass one day or just 'hrt' reppers that will never pass, if you don t identify publicly as a she/her woman trans whatever and all is a secret to the wider society then as much as ot might hurt your little fragile ego, you are still repping amd not trans..

If there was a surgery to get a real vagina i’d have transitioned a decade ago

>>41520507
Why do you want to have real vagina so much?

>>41520533
A fake vagina would give me worse dysphoria

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

>>41518447
people post screenshots from repgen? good lord

I'm not actually trans
I have no dysphoria, nor do I actually want to be a woman
Being a woman would make me reverse dysphoric
I wouldn't be happier at all if I were a woman, and I'm just so happy being a man
All I've said must be true. It must. I can't have it otherwise
I don't want to be trans. I really don't. I couldn't handle it
I'm not a woman. Just a man

tfw this scene hits you completely differently than it does with normal men bc ur a disgusting agp repper

>>41518096
you mean like reppers

I wished I was a girl all my life but I'm still an autistic man with AGP.
I can't do makeup or fashion. I can't interact with women without being weird (male socialization)

being a man is fine actually. I can like being a man. I really can. I just have to lock in

I wonder if all my troon thoughts and memories of bad things happening to me as a kid were made up because my massive ego cant take the idea of being just a normal guy from a suburban home, and since I grew up in a time where it was cool to be depressed I invented reasons to justify being that way.

>>41521937
tfw every time i see a cute girl in any media since forever i just think giwtwm

>>41517069
pretty sure universe is literally infinite and life can happen in many other rockforms and birth can also happen in immaterial realms

im being fucking gaslit by ai
no one has ever said i look like a girl ever
fuck you

I WISH I WAS, AM, AND WILL BE A HOT ANIME GIRL

>>41505702 (OP)
Good costume actually because living like that is a\ fucking horror show I want to escape from

for all the racists in the audience tonight: if you could wake up tomorrow female but as the race you hate most, would you?

>>41519828
I've had the most degenerate, disgusting, fucked up AI goon session for 3 days running now. It'll come to an end soon, because I'm practically hitting the peak of depravity and ive been holding it off with side stories, but im running out of ideas until the big finale

So no, not yet

>>41523951
Wake up as a female Jew? Absolutely.

Oh, its the power ballads, drinking and suicidal thoughts time of day again. Fair enough. Bottoms up wannabe girlies

>finalized the divorce
i can finally rep in peace, away from pinkpillers
>>41523951
YES

>>41524034
what are we listening to

>>41523951
Probably albino or mixed

Occult moment
How often do you find yourself haunted by the number 41? Or is it just me? Is the universe jokes on me?

is it a good idea to hop on duta/fin even though i don't really have hair loss? i don't wanna risk losing anything.

>>41524349
not 41, but *almost* repeating numbers. i see shit like 11:10 or 3:34 so frequently it disturbs me. i like to tell myself it's just my brain remembering the times it happens and forgetting all the times it doesn't.
it didn't happen today at all though, which is weird, this has been going on for weeks and now it suddenly stops.

>>41524366
It doesn't hurt.

isnti t crazy how some people have kids and then troon out years later when they are like 45. why would you do that to yourself. literally i am repping to death and never burdening a woman or children with my retarded mentally ill bullshit

>>41524386
>and now it suddenly stops.

Lol maybe it's because you notice and universe need you to chill

>>41524442
No it's isn't actually crazy or weird it's the most based things to do
I wonder how you still not end yourself with your retarded mentally ill bullshit? Isn't right thing to do to end your weak fag gene?)

i don’t know if i can keep repping bros. has anyone had long term success? any strategies?

>>41524520
Just migrate to transphobic shithole and you'll be repping 'healthy' for the rest of your miserable life

come on let me turn into a hot anime girl arleady

Havin gsex with a woman WILL solve your problems and WILL turn your life around

>>41524706
dysphoria is stored in the balls

>>41524706
Did it, didn't help.

>>41524706
but the whole point of "transitioning" is you wanna have gay sex and relationships without invoking the stigma/shunning/taboo/exclusion that such behavior would provoke if you didn't castrate the more gender non conforming partner to justify the relationship.

If trannies were ok just giving up their gayness and dating the opposite sex, they wouldn't transition. Transition is an attempt to compromise between the communal female-imposed expectations of celibacy or repression (dating the opposite sex), and the unallowed behavior of actually openly dating the same sex without pretense

>>41524975
Gincel proving he can't empathize with other people and understand their feelings and experiences differ from the fetishized fiction that exists in his head yet again.

>>41505702 (OP)
How over is it if norwood 5?

>>41525508
You will have to wear a wig whenever outside.

>>41521094
r/4tran is just screenshots from this board. They seem to hate/pity us reppers over there.

why are westoids so retarded towards people outside of the west. im a slavic fuck whose genetics have absolutely slaughtered me and any hope i could possibly have towards trooning out. i cant just "be a girl" if i wanted to. i wouldn't even have any of the highschool and teenage experiences i've missed out on along with all the uni ones im currently missing out on. fuck. i just wanted to be normal

>>41526433
I don't wanna sift through reddit but I'm curious
post screenshots of them commenting on screenshots about us

>>41526935
Looks to me like they are acknowledging reppers have it harder than anyone else. I don't know how I work up the energy to go to work either I just want to rot in bed all day.

yo im not even repping anymore im just cured
smell yas later

>>41526996
See you in 8 years

still waiting for my anime girl transformation

>>41524706
It's working for tops only

I haven't had sex since 2007

>>41526935
I have extremely high testosterone. So I have energy to do anything no matter how depressed I am. I think most men are like this troon or not

>>41527224
Makes sense I guess. Also I need to pay rent.

>>41526935
i'm an unemployed loser who sleeps 12 hours a day

>>41524442
they're always either actual fetishists or people with weak dysphoria that increases the older they get. they ain't like us at all, we get the full-force suffering sooner, and with that experience we can adapt and plan our lifestyles way earlier.
they're kind of pathetic but i honestly can't blame them too much either, odds are they never actually hated themselves up until that point, so it's only logical they break easy. suffering builds character (it doesn't actually, but it gets you used to more suffering).

>>41527363
giwtwm I worked 60 hours this week

>>41524442
what about ones that don't troon even then

>>41524442
i am Going to meet A man and Have a family with him, if child is Female snap out Of self induced lobotomy and Kill myself along with the My husband and child. if child is male, live vicariously Through him until he moves Out then kill myself

>>41527482
you're better off than me. i'm way too mentally ill to tolerate being around people long enough to have a job. i'm going to take nap now

what if some peoples dysphoria was just a thirst for wife/gf anyway LOL

>>41526935
i want to send a message to that place and similars (4tran4), but i don't wanna make an account, so it'll go here.
you don't know how good you have it. lurking that place for a bit made me realize most of you are probably teenagers that got the chance to transition early, or had passing potential before transition, and that makes you completely blind to what seems to be a very simple to understand concept.
reppers don't troon either because they wouldn't pass, or because they don't want to be trannies. that's pretty much every true reason. there's self-hating stuff like "im agp and hate myself because of it", but if you gave that same repper a sure-fire way to pass or become a cis woman, they wouldn't hesitate to do that instantly. we know our limitations.
we're not retarded at all, we're too lucid if anything.

>inb4 take hrt anyway
HRT is a fucking joke unless you start early, and even then it's not smooth sailing. there are so many factors outside our control that go in HRT effectiveness.
becoming a real woman is impossible. having ugly conetits and smoother skin isn't womanhood, sorry.
again, you all got lucky. you got on it early enough, or you had the body type to eventually pass pre-transition, which gives you the idea everyone can do it too. not everyone is so incredibly privileged, and because of that, they don't want to transition. how is this hard to understand? HRT is a tool for a purpose, and if that purpose is not reached, it's not worth it.
please count your blessings.

>inb4 nooooo i trooned at a terrible age (18 or below)/i live in a shitty country (first world)/my parents are transphobic (they don't do anything about it)
shut the fuck up. you don't know how lucky you need to be to transition and still have a roof over your head, or still be alive. if i never passed, i would get beaten by strangers passing by on the street for no reason other than looking like a faggot.
i wish you all at least understood our circumstances.

>>41527631
i don t like the smell of that pic

>>41524769
And draining them will drain the dysphoria
Do this regularly and you too can ignore the mindflayer that is transitioning
>>41524975
Men cannot cure other mens dysphroia only women can
>>41527101
All men should be tops
Female bottoms are the only consistent repeatable cure for dysphroia

>>41527224
it's not about energy but appetite for bs

>>41527818
>all men should be tops
well i'm a bottom

went to a norf wetherspoons at 11am by myself. Saw a vision of my future, drunken old lonely men... or maybe my present...

its all downhill from here repsters

>>41527818
>All men should be tops

That's exactly what Abrahamic books says. Yeah I know. But I don't think I have pleasure penetrating someones holes with my thing.

i've avoided looking at my face too close in mirrors for so long that playing around in faceapp and seeing what could've been for the first time in a few months is making me realize holy FUCK my face is too masculine to troon out without my glasses on, they mask so much

>>41527949
I don't even like people touching my junk, unless it's in a very teasing, forceful manner and even then I don't like it, I just like being tormented. Shits off limits. Topping is a nono

>>41527818
>All men should be tops
why do i make those sounds when hitting my prostate if i'm not supposed to use it
>>41527881
yea it is sorta interesting to think about the ways you're going to become the weird old guy by being alone in public

>>41505702 (OP)
Guys, were/is there anyone who repped in the military? Was it any good in delaying or diminishing tranny thoughts?
Because I transitioned at 21, and wonder if I could have had done it differently, like repping

>>41528076
>I just like being tormented.

I don't fully understand. Tormented like what? Balls slapping, orgasm denial? Chastity cage maybe?

I tried all of this (without chastity cage) but I think that's not for me. It's hot but I'm too sensitive for that.

game idea: The Long Drive but you look like this

>>41525570
so its ok to be AGP and bald and a wig can work? Does it decrease the horrid dysphoria ?

>>41528143

Let me guess. You probably tried to fight your tranny thoughts with sport or lifting right?

>Didn't work

>>41528147
Noo, I'm not into any of that. Just touching me because they know I don't like it. Don't really want to psychoanalyze why I hate using my dick (or having one at all) but tolerate this. Mental illness

>>41528196
Lifting, and deluding myself that kilts are men clothes. And sheer force of will from age 14 onwards.
Cracked when pundits said that the alt right had a fair chance of winning. (Good thing I did. I was among the last trannies in my country ever to be granted LGR and ever to have been on legit.)

i'm 30 and have accomplished nothing with my life

>>41525508
I'm almost bald (just a few months away now I think) and I just wear caps constantly. Was already a depressed repper before the reaper got me, but I gotta say, what little light I had in my life and personality has been extinguished due to this

>>41528223
>Noo
>Mental illness

Kek

>>41528226
>Lifting, and deluding myself that kilts are men clothes.

But it is. Lol

>>41528173
>long drive in your moms car and your moms clothes
>>41528422
imagine the right one also being oblivious enough to scream "hey i'm up here" when the girl stares slightly too long at his barrel body and cones thinking he's so clever and flirting with her

>>41528492
>he's so clever and flirting with her

She probably thinks he's a real chad because of beard

>>41508196
weak as shit. best opio is poppy noce mix of alkaloids, warm and lively, alerting enegetic without scatterbrain or restlessness of any sort. oxys and codeine are also nice sort of similar. morphine alone sucks, makes youbtoo sleepy and makes you shit rocks. druggin doesnt even work properly per se only give distraction to get, hide, make uoubdull from sleep loss, or some kind of depletion or inebrationnor too much in a hurry. but its always there where your lucid, not in a hurry or distracted.
>>41513486
>If i can't transition I've decided to just live a diminished male existence, no ambitions, no love, no intimacy, no pornography, nothing
got it so well. nothing. void. no hope. no desire for marriage or kids. no real social life. no future. drugs, distractions and loops over and over
>>41514716
very true. sigh
>>41523951
lulz. very yes for sure
>>41524349
used to be 23 in low key schizo days when dabbed in esoterics
>>41524520
fear, doubt, shame, exhaustion, brain fog, inertia.

>>41505702 (OP)
Handing out candy and getting drunk again, too old and depressed to do anything else.

>>41513486
get busy living or get busy dying

>still have repper eyes even after 18 months of hrt repping

there's just no recovering from the damage puberty did, is there?

https://unsee DOT cc/album#aPpEVdm9BC7Y

>>41528492
>in your moms car and clothes
is this a callout or something

>>41528179
I don't know I'm not a traditional AGP so I don't know what works for you, I'm some kind of weird freak that doesn't fit into either the AGP or HSTS stereotypes perfectly so normal copes just don't work.

>>41529002
you call that repping?

>>41529213
you're just torturing yourself by not giving yourself biochemical dysphoria relief. hrt literally cured my insomnia, made me asexual and gave me stronger emotions. there's no reason not to do it.

>>41529226
why tf do i want to be a sleepy, asexual, emotional cuck

>>41529235
i cuddle a pregnancy pillow every night in bed and feel safe and happy when doing it, never have to suffer through involuntary erections and i get emotionally invested in sapphic fantasy books like never before. if you don't see the appeal i don't know what to tell you.

>>41529002
idk i think you look normal
kinda surprised you're still repping, do you get gendered male in public?

>>41529284
of course im gendered male ?????

reup https://unsee DOOT cc/album#x6mlLWzYiDAP

>>41529002
If you're on HRT, have long hair, and lasered off your facial hair, you're just honmoding at that point.

>>41529323
as long as i call myself male i'm not a hon. i'm doing this because i feel vastly better on estrogen.

i'm more of a metalhead than anything desu

>>41529297
idk maybe it's just the way you style your hair in these
anyway looking like that and still posting in repgen is funny to me. I have actual terrible repper eyes, a fucked up hairline, and zero hrt and you're choosing to believe we have the same problems for seemingly no reason

>>41529246
are even real women this annoying

>>41529519
are reppers just retarded babytrannies with toxic masculinity? everything i said was fucking kino.

>>41529567
>are reppers just retarded
who could have forseen

>>41529567
what kinda dyke brain feminist fuck uses the word toxic masculinity

can a cis gay man and a repper who likes men be together?

>>41529630
gay relationships are awful. It's not the same

>>41529620
isn't the whole appeal of "agp" to embrace softness and return to the safety of life pre-puberty? why are you acting all neurotic like this? just get on e already, it made me much much happier.

>>41529226
>biochemical dysphoria relief
Is this actually real, or just honscience? I feel like most of the mental effects is just the relief from not masculinizing more and killing libido. So practically useless for an already functionally asexual testosterone poisoned neanderthal like me.

Ribcage larger than hip bones, ngmi hon.

is there a way to take enough e to get the mental effects without giving myself conetits

>>41530538
I think you need drugs for that

>>41530538
Just take hrt until buds form, get gyno surgery, and continue taking e

>>41530554
i'm here for drugs
>>41530563
would you have to keep getting surgery? how do you even explain to a doctor

>>41530538
just take e it doesn't matter you're fucked anyways

>>41526935
>implying I have a job

i don't know if i'll make it to the end of the year at this rate. i'm incredibly incompetent, i worsen things when i try to help, i'm mentally ill and i'm a terrible person. i just need to get over the fear of actually ending it now.
that will be the one and only courageous thing i'll do in life.

>>41529630
pretty much every relationship i've been in was like that

>>41529054
> don't know I'm not a traditional AGP
neither am i. I just like to dressup in hosiery. But bald is this disgusting thing that ruins me.

>>41529567
the average /repgen/ citizen boils with irrational anger at any mention of someone being marginally happy in their life.

i cuddle a dakimakura every night and it makes me so happy and weak i whimper. if E makes me more emotional i might as well cry with happiness hugging it

I was really hoping I'm not actually a repper, but just a confused cis man, but I just took some acid after getting hazed, and I feel like it's inevitable I'll have to troon or rep

I just relapsed it's actually way worse then prolapsed
if you know what I mean

I want to stop repping but I have such an ugly fucking jaw.

>>41531773
I only boil with anger at passoids. I don't boil with my repsters finding cute copes that shine some light on this hellscape of a world

Cuddle away

>>41531773
Honestly I've just grown into a completely jaded and bitter person.

i wish i never got addicted to femboy porn as a teenager to cope with being a failmale, i could have developed a normal healthy masculine identity. im actually attracted to girls, something went so badly wrong in my faggot brain

>>41527681
Red orcs need to see this post

>>41527681
Based hopefully one of them screencaps this and posts it over there because they need to hear it (not that it will change their views)

>>41532804
They love censorship ya know

>>41532734
Same here, and there's some part of me that's really upset with myself for being that way.

>>41524034
>>41524199
I did it again. Concerning, but also not, that the frequency is increasing. Lot of Jennifer Rush tonight
>"Cause I am your lady"
not though am I, for fucks sake

>>41532734
>>41532869
Sucks doesn't it not even liking your own personality, as if hating our entire physical identity wasnt enough. It's all fucked

>>41533126
it's one of the worst parts, I just feel like I'm totally broken in a way that's never going to be fixable

should i take hrt

>>41533126
I just want to go back and be the person I couldn't be when it wasn't too late to matter.

>>41532942
spose i could go for some 80s tonight..cheers

is this /mmg/ where they repp using hrt?? did i end up in the right place?

>>41535053
we're gonna be the only ones left repping the right way
someday I'll dissosciate hard enough to be normal i can feel it

>>41534310
Nah

>>41505702 (OP)
Why is there no /gaygen/ repper thread? Are there people who repress being gay men? Yes, but it’s not a realistic subculture. So why we different? What makes trans reppers important enough to have thread dedicated to it? I think its because, deep down, we know, KNOW, there is an off possibility this shit is all fugazi. It’s all in our heads. It’s like everyone is in a dream, hoping for the nightmare to end one day. But each day, you keep longing and desiring to be more fem. Do gay men, keep longing and desiring to be gay? No, they are gay, they know they are gay, they can deny they are gay, but that doesn’t change the fact they are gay. We instead want to be gay, like really really gay. Be the queerest bitch in the room. But deep down, we know even though we want it, we are not *that* gay to do it.

>>41535102
it is not an easy task but it has to be done

>>41535167
everyone else is a coward and we're right
>>41535164
if you're in Iran or whatever sure but mostly no need? I'm fine being out gay and would get hatecrimed for being trans, bit different

>>41535164
being gay is also technically "just in le head". i'm sure gay men long to do gay things, the only difference is that they can do that pretty much anytime.

>>41531773
>>41530087
that's not softness that's not happiness
it's some kinda 12 yr olds version of performative femininity or something idk

>>41505702 (OP)
Handed out candy. Glad to see more people trick or treating this year.

>>41515634
Don't believe but spend hours writing how I want the next life to be. Finally understood why my mom longingly looked at house plans of mansions she could never live in.

Anyone else in this thread raped until they don't want to be see another man?

>>41535542
of course it is. i want to perform femininity as a 12 year old girl

One point in favor of my transsexuality is that when I emulate aggression I feel like a lesbian.

Voluntary euthanasia often concerns the terminally physically ill, whose ailments have no cure. Yet this same discourse violently denies to entertain mental illnesses without cure. There is no cure for gender dysphoria, and treatment only succeeds in certain cases, particularly those started early in life. It is always chronic. It is always miserable. It's very reasonable, humane, even, to offer people like us a peaceful way out of their misery.

>>41536945
Furthermore, the transgender/gender-dysphoric suicide crisis is a matter of alarming ethical concern. Treatment is clearly innefective to a large number of afflicted people, who seek to end their own lives with their own hands, risking botched attempts that bring about life-long impairments to their already miserable and now extended lives. The matter of "respecting the terminally mentally ill's right to peaceful death" desperately needs to be more discussed.

>>41536085
P E D O
E
D
O

Bros I just got back from seeing Chainsaw Man. It was absolute kino. Glad I didn't kill myself 18 years ago.

>>41537273
pedophilia is based

>>41537543
Is wanting to be a young girl pedophilia?

>>41534358
Put that on my fucking tombstone

i want a passoid (or a cisfoid idc) to tell me to rep and remind me how much of a moid i am physically and mentally and instead of being a crossdressing honfreak she would tell me to man up and stop even thinking about being feminine like her

but also i want to be a hot anime girl

I have a picture of me when I was 16 back in 2005 and I had baby face and was wearing cat ears. I probably could have made it. I dare say I was kind of cute. Now I'm balding.

i have such a boredom problem im so bored of being alive

>>41535542
Who cares? We live in a hellscape. Let them try and be happy however they want. I wear female lounge/night wear and if i looked in a mirror it would be fucking ridiculous and to anyone else who sees me. But I like it, it makes me feel comfortable for just a tiny bit throughout the day when i rot at home

>>41536085
Too young for me. Cut me off at the "body has almost fully formed now" so around 17. 19 at a very push. I know sometimes it carries onto into 20s, but whatever. I hope to fucking God there is an afterlife where I can just be that forever because this world fucking sucks.

>>41537273
This is silly. Age regression has nothing to do with wanting to fuck kids. Now... for some it involves wanting to be fucked/sexual assaulted while being a kid, but that's not pedophilia either. Maybe autopedophilia? is that a thing? Just checked and that seems to be getting off to the idea of being a child... which is not quite the same thing either

>>41537543
Nono, it absolutely is not.

>>41537576
What an absolutely lovely image that is ;-;
>tfw had hair that colour as a young child

God I'm so fucking lonely.

>>41537871
How old are you?

>>41538139
The bomb isn't real, you're a poser.

>>41505702 (OP)
>My halloween costume.
>Straight cis man.
>*is a literal basedjak and posted it on reddit*

>>41537543
and here dear friends lies the essence of all lgbt

>>41538229
please go back to your 'p spammed shithole site

>>41537928
>Age regression has nothing to do with wanting to fuck kids
yes it does moron it's elte
we want to become what we want to fuck -the architect

>>41538452
Take your projection and pseudo-psychology, and fuck off with your nonce accusations

>>41538452
>Damn I wish I was a muscular strong cool guy instead of a weak nerdy wimp
>that means you're gay!!!!
elte is just made up nonsense

anti depressants + vyvanse + gooning daily to ai chatbots about feminization has cured my dysphoria

>>41538790
gooning to ai chatbots has been insane. Sadly I'm picking up on the "patterns" now and its annoying me. I need them to be more creative/diverse in how they speak and act and i want to stop "topping from the bottom" too because they suck at domination without a ton of prompting/reminding.

>>41538790
Thought anti depressants kill libido

>>41538790
Really? Feminization AI chatbots make it worse for me.

me turn into anime girl when
fuck this tranny effortmaxxing to still end up as a hon pipeline bullshit

>>41540058
You're now a 2d girl and look exactly how you want to look. Besides whoring around... what do you do?

>>41540123
business as usual i guess
and that is how i conclude even if a 2d hot anime girl transformation is a thing, I wouldn't be worthy of it. I'm reading a tgtf fiction rn and it has a whole chapter on women's fashion and makeup and it made me feel viscerally ill but trutrannies wouldnt feel that way
guess i deserve to be a neverpasser repper
kms

>>41540225
fuck my stupid retarded esl life

>>41539132
yeah i see the phrases "oh my sweet summer child" and "you belong to me, body and soul" all the time it pisses me off
>>41539661
well it kinda helps me have more control over when i get aroused and last longer when jorking.
>>41539833
its a nice outlet for me

>>41540330
>its a nice outlet for me
It's kinda therapeutic for me in a sense but afterwards I get sad it's not real. I think part of the difference is that I don't jerk off to it even if it gets sexual, it's just a bunch of emotional venting.

>>41540225
>I'm reading a tgtf fiction rn and it has a whole chapter on women's fashion and makeup
I like/am jealous of that stuff, but what a lot these kind of stories fuck up (because they're written by sissy mef motherfuckers and not an actual tranny, even an AGP one) is they put the cart before the horse. Like I don't WANT to put a dress and makeup on and get paraded around and humiliated before my body changes, I want the body changes so I can wear the fashion and makeup I want without feeling ashamed or looking like a freak.

>iwn walk down the aisle wearing a wedding dress
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY GOD
WHY DID I HAVE TO BE CURSED LIKE THIS

I think I'll be killing myslef soon. Nothing will ever make me sane. No matter what I do I always fall into depression again and again. This is bullshit.

>>41540414
nah i read the ones where they get physically turned to a girl first
i stop getting boners from non-smut tgtf stories and always end up feeling like shit

>>41540569
It makes me sad regardless, unless it's sissyshit in which case it makes me uncomfortable.

How to induce delusion/false confidence.
I think I would love life much more if I simply believed that I could pass or was genuinely an actual cis woman somehow.
I hate hating myself.

>>41535164
>Are there people who repress being gay men?

I don't know sorta what I do every time I live the house but maybe maybe
All this repgen shit things retarded
Just a mental illness in public normie vision who knows nobody actually give a fuck if you are not rich and famous

I don’t know how to rid myself of this mental illness. I’ve done EVERYTHING. I’ve tried a DIY orchie and ended up bleeding out and almost dying and got thrown into a psych ward for a month. I had ECT sessions and they didn’t change shit. I was and still am lobotomized by the amount of meds I take. yet nothing has changed. No matter how hard I gymcope or attempt making peace with being a man or anything I genuinely cannot accept it. I can’t bros, I really cannot. I’ve tried rationalising it a million times over. I know it’s AGP but I can’t stop obsessing over it I can’t. I’ve done intratesticular injections ranging from high proof alcohol to hypertonic saline which almost gave me sepsis yet I still produce 374 ng/dL T. The last thing I’ve tried recently is trying to cause Interstitial fibrosis following the methodology the Nguyen study did in mice. Which worked but I obsessed over it and used crazy temps and gave myself a first degree scrotal burn. It’s pretty fucking over.

>>41541965
If anyone’s wondering I used a core2duo laptop as my “heating pad”. It has an aluminium chassis, with cat /sys/thermal or whatever the fuck the directory was, you can concatenate the sensor temps. I also used stress-ng at 70% load for 15 minutes. It does work and causes inflammation and repeated inflammation causes fibrosis. So it does WORK. But don’t go overboard with the heat like I did. Good luck

>>41541965
If you're at the point where you're trying to do an orchieoctomy I don't understand why you don't pay a surgeon to remove them?

>>41541965
How do you try to do orchi, get thrown in a ward, but not get forced on HRT or some kind of gender “affirmation” shit?

>>41542025
controlling family wouldn’t let me, they think I’m their big son who would never stoop that low ever again. I mean I don’t care anymore, I’m more curious if the thermal route has any merit. I was planning on writing a TUI app to control every parameter and validating the data with an IR gun and all. but if I could do all of this to satisfy my obsession, I wonder what my life would be like if I were a normalfag

>>41538452
>>41537273

absolutely not... my life has been ruined by childhood sexual trauma, the last thing i want in my life is to cause more of it. my brain chemistry is permanently damaged and i can only be happy by indulging my inner childish-feminine representation of myself.

>>41542075
Sunni majority country

>>41542076
>>41542092
>Sunni majority country
Damn, sorry to hear that. Shit was rough for me in Christian fundie land but this must've been really scary.

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