Thread 41534965

>>41534965 (OP)
>>41535520

This poster is chickn. She’s a massive autist from /soc/ with an awful rep. Dig up her posts from either frengen here or california threads in soc for a harrowing rabbit hole explaining why and how she’s still single as a cisf on 4chan

>>41535608
avoidant personality disorder, dependent personality disorder, obsessive compulsive personality disorder.
anxious-avoidant personalities as opposed to cluster b's lack of impulse control and intensely expressed emotions

tldr, its the boring personality disorders

>>41535643
yeah but you can fix being fat i can't fix being fucked up or short

>>41535656
I played games with chikn for a bit and she never did or said anything crazy. she just said 'tfw no bf' a bunch then we just kinda ghosted each other, it's kind of funny that she apparently is the devil

>>41535728
how is being short a bad point for a tranny

>>41535715
i like a boring girl
>>41535656
qrd?

>>41535742
reverse dysphoria, i want to be strong and powerful and punch people in the head

>>41535570
I promise I'm usually more normal but home life has been rough and I'm going through medication issues
I'm on 3 different kinds of psychiatric medication to keep me stable and not actively suicidal/homicidal but I've ran out of my prozac and lamicitnal (idk how to spell it) and I'm too depressed and anxious to go pick it up because I'm scared that I'll get raped
My gf is essentially my care taker and I'm on suicide watch until my refill is ready
Then I'll be normal and whimsical again
>>41535603
As long as you're vulnerable licks lips
>>41535614
Maybe but I love what you represent and I have respect for your persistence to keep living despite your ongoing issues
>>41535656
? I don't remember ever being in frengen but I'm pretty retarded on cali threads
I'm not this person, I also go by pico on my main socials and I've never used another trip or anyone since I personally feel like it's cowardess for me specifically
Everything I say and do I say it with pride because I believe in my words
Also I have a gf of nearly 4 years and I always talk about her in every thread I'm in, I hate cis moids and they're the devil unless I can help them transition into pretty girls
I don't think I have a bad reputation, people who recognize me are usually super sweet and I try my best to be nice back because I love the community. It's done me so much good and I've met so many lovely people
>>41535729
Need me a friend who has all of these so I can pick their brain and be evil with them

man, I'm physically fucked up, poor, totally isolated with nobody in my life and I'm still not on medications. how?

>>41535520
Disc is prosopon

>>41535715
never call dpds boring, dpds are angels placed upon this earth

>>41535447
>I don't actually wanna meet up I just want attention from girls because my home life is shit rn and begging for attention online is the only thing I feel like I can control
I'm sorry Pico, hope you eventually get away from there and find happiness.

>>41535826
>>41535520
Whatttt you weren't the person I thought was responding to me I thought I was interacting with a 'moder

>>41535821
Go to a psychiatrist or hospital and threaten to kill yourself and others
that's how I got on meds but you may have to spend a few days on a forced hold
>>41535826
Can I text you in my burner discord first I'm scared you're secretly evil and you're going to dox me I need to make sure you're safe

>>41535858
K

>>41535840
Thank you this actually make me smile
I'm out of the house as much as possible
>>41535843
Sigh

>>41535881
You can still add me if you wanna, just wanted to clarify.
I desperately need more friends.

>>41535757
>i like a boring girl
>>41535809
>As long as you're vulnerable licks lips
i am definitely boring, as well as vulnerable
but i am also extremely easy to manipulate, u won at making my brain release feel-good chemicals
not even joking though, im that easy and pathetic :/

>>41535858
>Go to a psychiatrist or hospital and threaten to kill yourself and others
Yeah but why the fuck would I do that it would ruin my life for a temporary moment of emotional release

>>41535890
its ok to be boring. more than anything I value peace with my companionship

>>41535832
sorry i was speaking for avpd mostly
idk how it even works tho, i'm actually assigned avpd with dependent traits. no clue how that works but its definitely the most boring option on the dependent spectrum

i just assume its like a cat. hesitant but latches on when given enough security. never reached that level of security tho so idk

I need a mostly normal boring low maintenance gf to cum inside and otherwise be very affectionate to

>cluster b this cluster c that
fuck that where my cluster a homies at

>>41535913
>more than anything I value peace with my companionship
ig your not the trip here explicitly wanting thrills and entertainment but

its definitely worse than just boring, its even moreso tedious. breaking through avoidant tendencies to get... more avoidance

for me, at least, i have very dependent behavior so if someone, somehow got through the initial avpd, i'd be annoying in the opposite direction.

but if u are able to enjoy love like that of a cat or dog, it might be worthwhile.

>>41535998
>fuck that where my cluster a homies at
i hope you find the one anon
im personally too autistic for cluster a, but everyone deserves their chance for love, i hope you achieve it.

>>41536128
the most irritating part of avoidant people is when you like them and they decide to be avoidant, but otherwise I tend to like them a lot when they warm up. it's very endearing

>>41535715
cluster c is only boring because most of us are scared of interacting with people

>>41535887
I'm gonna fall asleep but you still can if you want. T.'moder

>>41536153
>when you like them and they decide to be avoidant
>otherwise I tend to like them a lot
i mean, tbf, the avoidant stuff is the most difficult part
idk what the appeal is after that, though i wish i did as a chronic sufferer of this plague

>>41536154
yep, but unfortunately the people who tend to fetishize personality disorders enjoy the emotional intensity of cluster b, so when they witness cluster c, it is a bit of a bore

>>41536128
from what i know about avpd, cluster a is beviorally basically the same except the behavior is more due to worrying abuot shit like getting spied on or poisoned as well as various cognitive deficits. a couple of times in my life ive had people get to know me well enough that i stop being so paranoid but then they just realize there really is nothing underneath it all lol

>>41536212
the appeal is they're usually pretty loyal when you crack their exterior. and cute to fuck into a gooey mess

>>41535809
>Maybe but I love what you represent
what do I represent? trainwreck hikis in their 30s?

>>41536273
just now finding out theres personality disorders people find hot and im over here with fuckin temu schizophrenia

>>41536329
i like schizophrenia too. pretty much anything but "ruin your life maliciously"

>>41535958
this but an interesting one

>>41536354
boring people are often interesting imo
i just say boring because common terms
"interesting" people or people who want "goals" in someone usually mean materialistic stuff like money or hobbies that impress them, like they're status symbols or something. i prefer calm but genuine people who don't need to be constantly stimulated, they're usually way more interesting when you get to know them. almost always have impressive, crazy backgrounds you'd never expect

>>41536371
>i said boring but i actually meant interesting
okay

>>41536341
i wish i had a partner/friends that were okay with me being into weird spiritual shit cause then i feel like i wouldnt be so noided about them getting in my head cause there wouldnt be anything in there im scared of them finding out

>>41536388
correct

>>41536396
well... id be careful with that stuff. speaking from experience

>>41536243
cluster a seems incredibly difficult.
i have a friend who is likely some flavor of cluster a and its very difficult to interact with due to my clashing mentality
luckily, at least i think, most paranoid delusions or compulsive thoughts can be helped with medication
either way though, i sympathize greatly with the difficulty

>>41536273
>and cute to fuck into a gooey mess
this definitely did not cause absurd amount of warm fuzzy in my brain, i am definitely not lying : )

>>41536396
real + valid, i'm not schizo but i only discuss my spiritual beliefs with actual schizos because they can't say i'm crazy

>>41536455
>>41536465
i would love to fuck an avoidant schizo into being needy and playful

>>41536493
ok? don't (You) me about it
t.non-schizo spiritualist

>>41536518
>t. kabbalist

>>41536455
the problem with the meds is they fully remove all of the magic and wonder from my mind and just leaves behind all of the emptiness and lack of motivation. but then i stop taking them and the magic doesnt come back and my mind becomes such a mess i cant even communicate with anyone, and even if i could put the words together to speak to someone im too scared to share any kind of vulnerability or even just information about myself for fear that they will use that against me

>>41536518
are you sure though? if you can vibe with schizos on that level you're probably at least on the schizo spectrum. btw did you know there was a schizo spectrum? not a lot of poeple do

>>41536534
you can believe in spiritual nonsense without being a schizo. for most of human history they just called it religion.

this thread is reminding me i need more schizo friends actually, thanks you guys

>>41536545
that sort of spiritual nonsense you go to a church to talk about. the kind of spirituality you have to talk to schizos about for fear of being called crazy is not the same thing anon

Anyways, I didn't get the pfizer injection

>>41536557
i could probably also talk to tiktok "witches" about it, but they cringe me out so i don't. the schizos just understand better and they're not in a position to tell me anything i believe is untrue because they don't have a leg to stand on.

very hard to conceal my power level here around you retarded casual faggots

>>41536576
yeah a lot of that sort of person seems like theyre more into it as a fashion/fad rather than a genuine desire for spiritual growth, like it's all performative
>the schizos just understand better
have you considered that maybe thats because its a bit schizo lol? i think you should at least look into stpd a little anon

>>41536455
>this definitely did not cause absurd amount of warm fuzzy in my brain, i am definitely not lying : )
describe that more

>>41535447
how pretty do the tgirls have to be for you to be happy with the attention from them? i'm an ugly manmoder, but i'm only 23 i guess

>>41535890
other vulnerable and boring tgirl checking in o7

>>41536617
i identify as mentally normal.

>>41536662
hey cute stuff

>>41536682
you cant escape it anon you're touched in the head too i can tell

>>41536701
i'm not very cute though :/

>>41536703
you're just jealous of me because you're a schizo and not like me, a normal and adjusted individual, who happens to have certain inclinations and beliefs not shared by the general populace

>>41536712
they all say that

>>41536734
manmoder general, which tells almost anyone that posts themselves in unsees that they're fakemoders, agreed i'm a truemoder

>>41536747
men don't moan like you will

>>41536766
my voice also doesn't pass

>>41536728
we really need an lgbt/x/ thread desu there was a great one a while back where an anon was explaining about athena and stuff

>>41536770
it does with a dick in its ass

>>41536805
i don't particularly want a dick in my ass, anon. i'm a transbian, that's why i'm on this thread

>>41536812
the great thing about being a transbian is they're all tops so you get it up the ass anyway

>>41536493
>>41536518
ok? absolutely (You) me about it
t. fuckin loser avpd who is easily flustered

>>41536534
>they fully remove all of the magic and wonder from my mind
that's honestly a big worry for me too, its a difficult dilemma that idk how to solve for you. it sounds dumb and overdone, but if you can, therapy helps with this stuff a lot

>>41536628
>describe that more
idk
my whole body felt warm and full of sensation as i imagined someone's strong embrace, full of genuine desire


>>41536662
godspeed friend o7
you WILL reach the happiness you need most in this world

>>41536785
would love tbdesu

>>41536837
i will not reach happiness, i will kill myself instead

>>41536837
oh the things i would do to you, throbbing in you while you’re in an avoidant fit

>>41536860
u can and you must try, its the only option before it is too late

>>41536869
the things i need done to me
>throbbing in you while you’re in an avoidant fit
definitely involving this, despite my hesitation, and more

>>41537027
what else do you have in mind babe

>>41537036
>what else do you have in mind babe
oh.. umm. i honestly didnt think i'd get this far
kinda anything that'd make me feel close, i want that connectedness. anything, no matter how rough or tame that feels close to someone

You
Yes you reading this
I want to strangle you from behind while I raw dog your asshole until you pass out from going numb.

>>41537086
cute, this is the kind of person i like. there’s a purity in it :) and it’s hard to be much closer when I’m in you in bed

>>41534965 (OP)
>>41535072
No matter how much I love men, I always come back to PIV with a cis girl. I can never fully commit to cock, even though I want it 95% of the time. That 5% I'm just like, I need cum inside a girl. It's really hard not to meltdown from dysphoria, but if I can silence the voices, it's the best orgasm in the world.

Baby trapping is hot. Wrap your legs around me and make me yours.

>>41534965 (OP)
I'm down for PIV but only if my bf can rearrange my guts simultaneously
>>41535072
>bpdemon to baby trap
Umm, I was born sterile but am happy to make your life worse than it already is

>>41537141
i... i dont even know how to respond
ive definitely been described as pure or innocent but im not sure
i just want to be close, and i lack the vocabulary for anything else

>>41537201
>I'm down for PIV but only if my bf can rearrange my guts simultaneously
ughhhhhh ive wanted that so much for so long, pounding some cis chaser pussy while someone else is pounding my ass aaaaahhhhh

>>41534965 (OP)
Only if you asphyxiate me afterwards

after much consideration, i'd try fucking a girl if that's what she wanted. but she'd have to be really encouraging / supportive & not get mad at me if i cant get it up enough >.>

>>41535010
i'm a cis f chaser and i dont want piv, tgirls usually have the nicest hands and fragile self worth which makes them so fun to play with

>>41537179
o////o wow i need this, you sound like youd do such a good job for me sweetie<3

>>41537637
>tgirls usually have the nicest hand
wait really? Do you like small hands or something?

>>41537637
i would let u play w/ my obsessively lotioned hands & non-existent self esteem c:

>>41534965 (OP)
i love my f chaser friend, how do i ask her out without destroying the relationship?

>>41535010
wait piv as in they want the trans girls to penetrate them? cause most f chasers ive met want the other way (to peg me)