Thread 41538029

>tfw arresteddevelopment troon
>think violence, meanness, bullying, sadism, racism, sexism, homophobia, meat-eating, lechery, yelling, and basically anything that makes other people's most sensitive of feelings get hurt to be a bad thing that ideally everyone should avoid but we live in a world where it's basically impossible to because everybody is suffering so much
>consider most of "manning up" and "toughening up" to be forms of callousing one's authentic self in a damaging way and burning off one's ability to be in touch with the good authentic sensitive and empathetic feelings humans are supposed to have in order to cope with how bad things are
>feel a constant sense of horror seeing absolutely supposedly regular things that happen in the world day by day
>even entertainment is normally just stuff that revels in stuff that is usually bad
>only comfort to be found is in cartoons made for little girls and religion (not the "bad people go to hell" type but "lets all just love each other and have compassion and be good" type)
>absolutely hate experiencing or thinking (even if it's an intrusive thought) anything sexual
>was intensely scared of my dad growing up and thought he was really mean
>get treated by others like a faggot growing up even though basically asexual
>kinda scared of all men because of toxic masculinity
>my ideal body is really short and weak because ideally I want to inherently be seen as nonthreatening as much as possible
>spend literal years obsessing over how I made people feel slightly bad by being awkward and making a faux-pas in the past and because of this feel like I'm a terrible person
>take hrt because the idea of being seen as scary and predatory like a guy makes me want to die
>end up becoming a hikikomori anyways because people see trannies are scary and predatory anyways and I don't want to disturb others with my presence

Does anybody else relate?

>>41538029 (OP)
not really, I'm pretty much everything non threatening I can imagine but I've seen retards with your views destroy everything I love while insisting I'm the bad guy so I've got no real way to relate to that kind of self deception. even vegans who want to never eat an animal are oblivious or indifferent the massive ammounts of animals their farming practices kill or displace, how much blood is in a cup of coffee. A lot of this compassion is basically a form of narcissism and pathological. You need to feed the high and assure yourself that its true and so the violence gets committed to truth in order to feed the comforting lie. take your religious everyone hold hands approach that probably preaches miscgenation and mixed race society. In an effort to inflict their lie on reality, violent or primitive (or both) people are mixed into environments and societies they don't understand, community and trust is dismantled, people get raped, killed and murdered, and the ones who want it to stop are held responsible as though perpetrators, all to continue the existence of the comfort that you are the meek one.

similar but am straight cisgender male

i often feel mad and want to hit things for no reason even when I am just sitting still and doing nothing, maybe this is the reason

i relate a lot to this, i’m terrified of sexuality and view it as inherently violating so i feel guilty for desiring others and i rarely go out and eat very little to maintain a frail physique

>>41538029 (OP)
i am plagued by the same thoughts and urges to hide in order to not appear as scary, and let me tell you nona, you gotta beat those thoughts to a pulp. you have to exist. if you surround yourself with those thoughts, eventually you will become what you fear. you have to thug that shit out and become not what you fear, but what you want to be. start acting confident and eventually your lie will become the truth, otherwise you'll just stay an awkward mess your whole life.
t. tranny that one day related to you

>>41538273
>>41538029 (OP)
yapperthon death battle ultimate

>>41538029 (OP)
congrats, you've discovered nihilism. this is not sustainable

>>41538273
rule 2

>>41538450
I'm probably double your age.

>>41538273
all I said I dislike when bad stuff happens that causes pain and suffering anon

I'm not ignorant about farming practices or labor practices in the globalized world.
I assure you, I get absolutely no high out of this.
At no point did I say "I like feeling morally superior to others and preaching"
I feel a constant state of negative emotion because of how fucked up everything is and how it's almost impossible for one to do anything that doesn't cause some form of harm to others.

You seem to believe in racist stuff though since you veered off into talking about miscegenation and mixed raced societies and "primitive people." That coupled with the random accusations of me being part of someone destroying everything you love and telling you you are the bad guy (I don't do anything I'm a hikikomori like I said) makes me think you have internet politics brainrot and have effectively done the equivalent of spooking yourself into thinking a shadow in your room is a home invader by assuming I'm part of the bad evil libshit borg hivemind set out to personally destroy your videogames and ensure the great replacement happens or whatever.

You're entire post is about how I'm blind to my own narcissistic moral hypocrisy and yet in the very own post you made you repeatedly reference yourself as someone who is unfairly maligned as bad despite standing up for the uncomfortable good and yourself being the actual non-threatening one in reality.

or whatever.

BOO ANON BOO IM HERE TO VOTE DEMONCRAT BECAUSE I LOVE WHITE GENOCIDE, LONG LIVE LE WOKE!!!!
Happy halloween, stop using 4chan.

>>41538273
>>41538885

>>41538928
we are both gay

>>41538934
Cute

>>41538996
no u

>>41538885
>shadow in your room is a home invader
Anon you are typing this post to submit it to a fucking NSA server that was nationalized and possessed from its owners because some virgins who fap to anime girls figured out and emberassed some military pukes who funded croney game journalism. An anime pussy enjoyer website became synonymous with terrorism and heavily monitored. A hikki like yourself is forced to talk here at best because glowniggers post CP they make themselves on every alternative that gets popular without their involvement or oversight. If you don't get that the "shadows" are cast by real things you're not someone who isn't ignorant but someone with their head burried sandward. All you can do is mock real harm that is happening to people out there because the brain rot has set in for you. You can only see it as something you heard in a news cycle ready for mockery rather than real harm people endure.

>In your entire post you repeatedly reference yourself as someone who was unfairly maligned
Never did this, only said I'm pretty damn harmless. You are externalizing a bunch of shit at me at this point to keep your little lie going.

>vote
funny joke
>stop using 4chan
get off my lawn nigger I'm marked for deletion.

>>41539090
The shadow I referenced you seeing was *my* post anon.
I meant "you're treating me like some weird fucking leftist boogyman because some minor similarities to stuff you've seen online."
I don't even watch the news and I didn't mock any real harm that's happened, only you, for treating me like some person I'm not from the very start for whatever fucking reason.

>Never did this
>destroy everything I love while insisting I'm the bad guy
>the ones who want it to stop are held responsible as though perpetrators

>>41538029 (OP)
too long, didn't read, jorkin my gock

>>41538029 (OP)
i'm actually trutrans but i identify with a bunch of this, the problem is that by now i'm already bitter and hollow. i can't be loving, i don't have it in me anymore.

>>41539158
>you're treating me like some kind of leftist boogieman
>think violence, meanness, bullying, sadism, racism, sexism, homophobia, meat-eating, lechery, yelling, and basically anything that makes other people's most sensitive of feelings get hurt to be a bad thing
You're not a leftist boogieman you're a leftist everyman. you can't describe your real feelings which are emblematic of the root cause of what I just described and then get pissed off because
>muh conservative news cycle said leftist bad
I don't give a shit about leftist boogiemen. As far as I'm concerned, a right leaning party doesn't exist in this earth. There's no person I can point to who isn't a regular person that I would like to be involved in politics in any way.

>>41539231
Actually anon, genuine authentic right wing conservatism stands for morality and virtue, not owning the libs and being a self-indulgent degenerate (but straight male coded).

Wanting sentient life to not suffer needlessly isn't a bad thing.

Bullying people stupidly, indulging in gluttony (but with meat and beer), unfairly and unjustly oppressing others, ect., aren't right-coded, nor is opposition to them left-coded. They're actually just genuinely bad.

For the record, I don't like the NSA either. Or corruption spun in left-wing words. Or people bullying people who fap to anime girls. Or feds creating controlled opposition.
I don't like racism, but I also don't like it when a black guy rapes a white women. These things are not mutually exclusive.

You keep bringing up news cycles but you're the one who is constantly referencing political talking points.
If the reaction to:
"Bad things are bad because suffering" is
"You must be a narcissistic hypocrite and it's people like you who are causing rape and murder because of (implied) mass immigration"
Then I think it'd be healthy for you if you stop using 4chan.

>>41539302
>You keep bringing up news cycles but you're the one who is constantly referencing political talking points.
Literally haven't done this, but I dont suppose someone who said everything above this line would comprehend that most of political discourse in 2024 is glownigger journos canvasing /pol/ for opinions they can launder into something for the good goys.
>the list in question
Doesn't represent anything you said earlier, and is, again, a bunch of contrived bullshit you added to keep feeding the lie.
I never said needless suffering is great
I never said bullying is wonderful
I never said overeating is fantastic (your ideas of nutrition cause more animal deaths and poor health btw)
I never said it'd be cool to unfairly and unjuustly oppress anyone.

all I did do was give a couple of examples of how people with the _ATTITUDES_ you expressed endorsed, participated, and in some cases, created a status quo of destruction pain and misery, and when the evidence of that creation was inescapable they blamed it on me and others.

And in order to keep your own retarded lie going, you somehow contorted this bullshit to mean an expression of my infallible and self obsessed attitude. the very notion that your critics could be victims in any way makes you insane with accusation and you become the very thing you claim you want to reject.

>>41539494
>4
5 even

>>41538029 (OP)
>>my ideal body is really short and weak because ideally I want to inherently be seen as nonthreatening as much as possible
>>take hrt because the idea of being seen as scary and predatory like a guy makes me want to die
This is textbook autogynephilia. "I'm just a weak little girl uwu"

>>41538029 (OP)
>asexual
>tranny
No

>>41539494
>And in order to keep your own retarded lie going
What retarded lie are you talking about anon?
>the very notion that your critics could be victims
What critics?

What are you talking about.
I'm calling you insane for treating me like a stand in for other random fucking people so you can talk about political shit as if I'm one of those responsible for it what don't you get about that.

You're saying you're the one getting blamed by others but all you've been doing from your very first reply is blaming me for "a status quo of destruction pain and misery."
Yet you double down and say I'm blaming you?
What, did I, the individual, in this thread, blame you for other than attacking me for the world's woes with political talking points as if I've had anything to do whatever the fuck your gripes with the world are?

>>41539511
>>41539529
yeah yeah heard it before.
"I am scared of hurting women"
"that means you want to appear harmless, so you can rape women!"